14 Jan 2018, 3:35 pm
I was doing better with my mind a while ago but the negative thoughts I suffer from were simply pushed down and they started to surface again yesterday when I spent the day alone.
I sometimes attend an Unitarian fellowship to help myself get out of the house and talk to others. I used to hope I would meet a girlfriend going to it but I gave up on that because most of the people who attend it are elderly and the few younger people are married couples with children.
A gothic girl who I've never seen before was at the social discussion. She had a baby in her lap and a little boy wandering around. I also heard her mentioning that the children had a father. When I saw all this, my feelings about not having a girlfriend as well as wondering if I will ever have one (I've had one before but it didn't last long) fully resurfaced and overwhelmed my mind to the point I had a breakdown. I started also wondering why don't I have a gothic or alternative looking girlfriend and are all of them taken? 
Should I just commit suicide? I've suffered for almost 12 years from dysthymia and it's been unbearable.
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14 Jan 2018, 7:32 pm
Alternative is pretty much a catch all term I use for those who aren't typical Bible Belters.
I have seen gothic girls as well as other types at music shows in Austin but they tend to already have boyfriends/husbands and trying to talk to them is difficult.
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14 Jan 2018, 10:06 pm
I sometimes attend an Unitarian fellowship to help myself get out of the house and talk to others. I used to hope I would meet a girlfriend going to it but I gave up on that because most of the people who attend it are elderly and the few younger people are married couples with children.
A gothic girl who I've never seen before was at the social discussion. She had a baby in her lap and a little boy wandering around. I also heard her mentioning that the children had a father. When I saw all this, my feelings about not having a girlfriend as well as wondering if I will ever have one (I've had one before but it didn't last long) fully resurfaced and overwhelmed my mind to the point I had a breakdown. I started also wondering why don't I have a gothic or alternative looking girlfriend and are all of them taken?
Should I just commit suicide? I've suffered for almost 12 years from dysthymia and it's been unbearable.
No,.... you should get a cat maybe...cat before suicide is my vote.
14 Jan 2018, 10:15 pm
I sometimes attend an Unitarian fellowship to help myself get out of the house and talk to others. I used to hope I would meet a girlfriend going to it but I gave up on that because most of the people who attend it are elderly and the few younger people are married couples with children.
A gothic girl who I've never seen before was at the social discussion. She had a baby in her lap and a little boy wandering around. I also heard her mentioning that the children had a father. When I saw all this, my feelings about not having a girlfriend as well as wondering if I will ever have one (I've had one before but it didn't last long) fully resurfaced and overwhelmed my mind to the point I had a breakdown. I started also wondering why don't I have a gothic or alternative looking girlfriend and are all of them taken?
Should I just commit suicide? I've suffered for almost 12 years from dysthymia and it's been unbearable.
No,.... you should get a cat maybe...cat before suicide is my vote.
I have a cat. But that is no substitute for a girlfriend.
15 Jan 2018, 2:13 am
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15 Jan 2018, 10:58 am
You have terrible reading comprehension if you are getting that from my posts.
I never once stated I wanted anyone to offer me their daughters or sisters in marriage to me. The point of that post was that something like that wasn't happening despite what SJWs claim happens all the time. Margaritas? I don't drink at all and what you are assuming about me says more about yourself than it does me.
I know who I am. I don't see women as sex toys at all. If I did, why am I not settling for someone who is unattractive to me both mentally and physically? Try actually reading other people's posts and stop jumping to conclusions. If you think I am going to take any advice from you, you are damn wrong. I don't even want you in my threads. Stay out of mine and I'll stay out of yours.
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