Unable to deal with the cruelty of life.

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Life has not given me much. I was given a low quality, f**ked-up autistic brain. I was given a poor, dysfunctional family where my father is a dictator, my sister and mother and stupid and doesn't care about me. I had a sh***y school and college life and got so many mental scars because of bullying. I have ptsd now. I keep having flashbacks of all the cruel things those f*****s said to me in school. I can't concentrate on my studying and I am unable to acquire any skills. I will never get a job to support myself and get the stuff I want in life. I can't accept that the people who did such horrible things to me will never be penalized in any way.

I hate people so much. Everyone just lives for what they want. They only care for someone who can give them something good. I am unable to deal with these harsh truths of life. I see life as nothing but an unfair race where everyone has the same goal - power. You don't get to choose what vehicle you will be riding. If you are unlucky, you ride a wheel chair. Lucky people get to ride luxury cars and aircraft. If you are in a wheel chair, you have to do something for the lucky ones(work) to get access to better vehicles. If you are unable to work(mental disabilities), then you either abandon the race(kill yourself) or keep riding that chair. Everyone tries to screw each other to get power(bullying,fighting).

Thirst for power is what runs this world. Unlucky people like me get trampled on by the lucky people who are too busy living their dreams.

I often feel the same way. I think a lot of us do. I was bullied and still think about how mean they were to me and how they just got away ith it. Im wondering how kids could be so cruel. I got help for my anxiety and am now living on wellfare. I dont have much money but everything is included here so I can save some money and my nieghbours are nice. Maybe if you get help you will find some benifit from it too. Not necissarily the same kind of benifit as me, but something.

All I can say is: you haven’t met the right people yet.

The world has elements to what you say. But there are many who don’t follow this line of thought and action.

Yeah, I always seem to meet total as*holes. I feel like good people are non existent.

I think there are many people like you say and it makes life such a struggle when you are not like this yourself. Then, you are like a sheep in the middle of wolves.

I try to put a mental wall between them and me and struggle to continue working/studying. It requires a lot of energy but you can succeed.

The thing is once you, the little kind sheep, succeeds without any anger, without bullying anybody,... that makes all wolves crazy angry, jealous, and mad wanting to kill you.

^^^but the wolves are killing their own world, their own planet, so to say their own food and their own home.

I would say life is bloody bugging

I like monkeys.

To my opinion, they do not deserve you to compare them with humans. They are much less f****d up, they do not destroy the planet. They also have some abilities above human's abilities. Depends on the field.

I hate it that human always feel superior to animals. It is simply not true, far from true to my opinion