" Missouri mule ".

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My mother used to complain sometimes that she was being " treated like a Missouri mule ". Maybe even " beaten to death like one! "? Maybe not. (She was from Texas.)
Anyway, despite it all. I've borrowed her phrase.
Sometimes I use the metaphor for myself .
I am out of that motel room now. I have about four dollars in my pocket. I finished off the microwave food I'd bought this morning before I left, but it's past 2 now. I left with both my pieces of luggage, my backpack and the (Army-size, I believe) duffel bag.
I threw away almost all* of the clothes I don't have on right now before going ~ Bluntly, if I had enough good stability to be in a reasonable/adequate place for a while, I could work up to doing my laundry. I don't. so I cannot!
Especially with that, my ball and chain was maybe not that bad ~ Sheesh, I " always look on the bright side of life " ~ I certainly had to rest rest rest loads.
Oh, and I guess I won't make thateye doctor appointment I spoke of so . I don't know where the office building it is at (I have their address ~ it is likely near the hospital I was in, at the edge of town.) is. I have e-mailed them ~ No reply as of now.
As for ParaCruz, I don't have a relationship with them yet, as a person outside of the rehab place I was in ~ Oh, and you're supposed to make arrangements with them 24 hours in advance. Oh, and I don't have a phone now.
It's now 2:28 by the computer's clock ~ The app't is at 2:30. (Still, additionally, ParaCruz does require an upfront cash payment of four dollars. Each way. And even before this, I anticipated that I'd have trouble getting back to somewhere ~- and that my pupils would be dilated - after the app't, and it is exactly 2:30 now ~ 2:31 now. And wondered whether, even, I could somehow get from there to deadline at the SA shelter at 5:30-6:00. ~ and I ain't got 8 bucks.)
I am at the library now, I won't look and and re-write this to place it further up in the text if I haven't placed it there before.
My phone pretty much it's absolute llast legs that I've written about so much this last weekend, I think Sat. overnite was the last time it functioned ~ I tool it with me to the library for a last last last last last ditch attempt to see if it can be made to work /be recharged w/the presumably better library electric outlets. (Better than a Santa Cruz , I guess, welfare motel?) If not, it's the knacker's yard for this one.
What a way to go blin? ~ to extend Suzi Quatro's 60s band the Outsiders. among the stuff I've listened to today? ~ I certainly don't want so ~ However ~ and let me put in the metaphor for " tote dat barge, lift dat bale " for what carrying around the ball & chain does to me!



*-I kept the " for church " button-up shiirt & tie. Mebbe a matching undershirt, too ?

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Too late in the day for this suggestion, but maybe for next time:

Can you not ride public transportation for free where you are if you cannot pay?

I'm not sure if it's an official policy here or just one that bus drivers seem to follow, but, if you cannot pay and they catch you sneaking on the bus or trying to sneak passed them or if you're rude about it in any way, the driver will not move the bus until the person who hasn't paid gets off or security arrives to deal with them.

But if indigent people cannot pay the fair but plead their case politely to the driver & ask nicely with a please and thank you, they're pretty much always permitted to ride the bus for free. Drivers don't care that much about fare revenue (they're not security people/collections and aren't going to risk their safety to demand a $4 fare) but they don't like being disrespected. They're happy to help when someone is legitimately in need of a ride, asks nicely, and expresses gratitude for the favour.

If I were in your shoes I'd certainly make an effort to sweet talk a bus driver and let them know you cannot pay the fare but need a ride to get to an important doctors appointment.

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No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.

...It is now Friday. Yesterday I left my prescription drugs at the library. Two-day, I had aches and muscle spasms/stabs I got of and on through the day .sugar is likely way way up and someone said he thought he saw something in my eye this morning.
I couldn't.
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What I did was, I called
the ER from the SA shelter, not having been able to get to HPHP and get tested and presumably told to go to the ER by staff there, especially since I greatly sugared myself - to try and get a couple days more on my back rather than straining it. (And, hey, see the Oscars on Sunday nite - some more time not using my back carrying stuff around and not spending money and eaing junk food and hopefully bringing in home to the authorities that I need somewhere to rest and recover and not strain my back -and
It didn't happen . Now past 12 I have to stay in the hospital lobby all night it's too late to go back to the SA shelter. At least they've not throwing me out. I don't know how this'll screw up my sleeping pattern or what I'll do Saturday daytime time .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Over-sugaring yourself to get back in the hospital for a couple of days was a risky move. The sugar could agglutinate in your veins so thickly that the result could be a crippling stroke. And depending on where the stroke occurred (the brain, the legs, the lungs, etc) you could be left paralyzed or, worse, dead. Glad to see you're still doing relatively okay, though.

.....You have a point. Thank you. However' what worries me is not crippling my back more with carrying the luggage around so much. And giving my foot a chance to heal by not walking around so much!! !! !! !! !! !
The fact is'I might have to set up another Grin And bear It graffiti arrest if some more nonviolent misdemeanor jail time is the only way to get so. E time off my feet !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

It's sad and funny, but true, that many homeless people (including me) have done simple crimes just to go to jail and get out of the weather. Society has, unfortunately, come to that - get arrested for a petty crime and get at least three days in jail. It's unfortunate your thinking is that way at the moment, but believe me, I absolutely understand.

...I am at the hospital. I am watching the Oscars, goody goody doo. This morning I thought to call 911 yet again, thinking I'd at least get a day off from breaking my back carrying the luggage - ball and chain -. The pain aside, they did perceive me as having enough water on the lungs to stay " overnight ". Later, a doctor seemed to call for even more, as far as weight gained by me, more water. So, whoop tee do .
Maybe I can, somehow, persuade the powers that be that I need somewhere to recover that allows me to rest more , while living decently, not bring on perhals permanent pain on my back and letting the foot heal from a situation where doctors want a just in case-" you don't need it, but " amputation. The nurse just now did't have orders to salve my foot, though . I had been, dramatically, thinking this morning " Do I have to give them what they want and get my toe cut off before I get a decent place " ?

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I have trouble understanding this scenario. You didn't like not being able to go all over the place getting things done while in rehab.

And now you want to be put back into a facility so you don't have to go all over the place, can rest and heal and be on a proper diet to manage water gain - which is what you had in the first place and fought against it.

...Bwing able to go out, but being able to stay in, too. The shelter I was in most recently made you take everything with you. It would be, in a situation like that, best to have the option of not going out at all - while still being in a late-aft-early evening situation so that all you people who are inclined to verbally jump on me and say " What do you think this is, shore", like Ben Carson, will be satisfied that I'm in a shelter with rules, Iwiuksb't be getting a place if my own, you presumably wouldn't be mad at me that I " was getting too much -
you'd be satisfied that I was still in a shelter, nothing more, no private room is out all night -
But I could still, gradually, physically heal .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...RR, how did you manage not to lose your car when you went to jail? When you went, we're you in continuously, or first in for a while then let out for a while, to later be tried and either do more time orget off? I did some in the past, none mire recent than 2015, all the time was done in Santa Cruz, perhaps before you knew me here.
Sleeping on a flat bed and staying off of my feet much of the time, would be motivations, if I did it. A certain thought that it might put me in " Give him a place, it's cheaper than the hospital-police " category, too.
You say you looking to sign up for HL housing when you're in a new town, I don't know how to do that .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I'd gotten locked up for three days. My car, with my keys still stuck in the ignition, was sitting on the road just up the block from the Northgate Mall. Since you can park in one spot in Seattle for three consecutive days, I was okay. By the time I was released my ABD check had come through so I was able to afford the $75 for the locksmith.

All counties in the US have subsidized housing. All you have to do is Google "Subsidized Housing [county]."

https://affordablehousingonline.com/hou ... Santa-Cruz
https://apps.hud.gov/apps/section8/index.cfm
https://affordablehousingonline.com/low ... apartments

Studying the lists, I realized the wait in Seattle was 4 to 7 years. Since I'm not willing to live in my car for that additional length of time, I thought it best to scope out a smaller city where the waitlists average one year. That's what led me to investigate places like Clallam County and Jefferson County. Generally, smaller towns have better and safer shelters during the winter.

When the summer comes, I'll probably be in my car for about four to six months. By then an apartment should open, I hope. I'll pay for it with my SSDI. If you have SSI, that will suffice, too.

Robin came up with some good ideas. Put yourself on a waiting list for 1-2 years or something. Or less (even better!)

I just wish those social service folks would turn the corner, realize that you're pretty ill, and put you up ahead on some waiting lists as "priority." Or even grant you a studio apartment right away (preferably with your own bathroom).

But you do sorta have to "play nice." Maybe you're "playing nice" already. Either way, it would be a smart move, in my opinion.

You're not a person who is "totally out of his mind."

This may seem like a stupid question, but:

How much are benefits and how much does it cost to rent a room or an apartment?

According to google, SSI in California pays $910.72/month when combined with some federal benefit. You'd think one could rent a room for under $500 somewhere and still have $400 left for groceries/essentials.

No?

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No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.

Studio apartments in the Santa Cruz area runs about $2000/month. Rooms average between $800 to $1200/ month. Subsidized studios are 30% off monthly income so, say, around $400/month. (BTW, these prices are not unique to Santa Cruz. It's roughly like this from sea to shining sea).

https://sfbay.craigslist.org/search/scz/roo

https://sfbay.craigslist.org/search/scz/apa

Similar to the high cost of housing here.

But it’s not like that from sea to sea. There are plenty of places between the coasts where rent is dirt cheap.

There are likely small towns in California where rent is cheaper, too.

If one is on gov’t benefits and isn’t tied to a job at a specific location, why not relocate to a cheaper spot and have a roof over your head?

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No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.

You probably have to go deep in the "Inland Empire" to get cheap places in California.

On the coast, forget about it.