TechnicallyCalm wrote:
It's been quite some time since I'm been back on this site, little over a year at this point. I don't remember why I stopped coming by I just did.
Since then things have spiraled out of control. I lost access to all my devices, only being allowed on my phone or computer to update a task list or go on support groups.
I though about coming back here since i received a lot of help.
My mother and sister are burning on both ends and are frequently talking about me leaving. I recently did leave to someone house and came back after a few days.
The small break relaxed me and from what my mother has said, I seem like my younger self in my teenage years.
I was calm, confident and reassuring. After less then a week of being back I spiraled back to what I was before. I was nervous, blaming others and refusing to take any fault. I'm making mistakes again that cause my family to get angry.
A few of my biggest problems are using electronics even when I've been told not too. I recently got caught walking with my Grandma tablet in hand.
Another issue I have is not communicating with my family, either what I'm doing or if something is okay to do.
Any help or advice is appreciated. Thank you and wish me luck through this tough time.
Sounds like a tough time. My own stepdad would throw me out of the house always, for no reason, except as his own little power trip. I'm sorry for you. Sometimes just bidding time and preparing for living life elsewhere is the best you can do. I wish I could be more helpful, but sometimes the only answer is that with time things change and planning for the future helps. Try not to get trapped in either loans or military service though, those will either give lifelong debt or may literally risk your life; going through temp agencies to find work is best IMO, save up as much as you can and try not to spend more than you need to. If living in a hostile environment is driving you crazy, moving out ASAP is a good idea, but you need it to be stable so as not to also lead to a breakdown.
Take care.
Ben
05 May 2018, 6:09 pm
