Anxiety attack peak
I've been under stress for days now, I think this is the second or third day I've had an eye spasm in a row. But today I screwed up, so the stress increased even more and I ended up suffering a full blown anxiety attack. Cheeks blushing, dizziness and light headedness and a high blood pressure and a gut wrenching feeling. Now, not only were my other eye spasming but my ear drum and neck muscles too!
I couldn't study anymore, I had to take the rest of the day off. But now I had nothing to do so all I could think was the origin of the stress and this anxiety. Nor did I have any friends to call and tell of my anxiety attack.
I ended up doing a 10 minute meditation and it helped a little though. I think I will probably just head to bed now and sleep for 10 hours.
Nothing. Nada. Not even sleeping pills, though I've asked a rescription for them to my occasional sleeping problems.
Maybe I should describe this most recent anxiety attack in detail to my therapist. She knows that I suffer from them occasionally but she doesn't seem to take them seriously since I get them so rarely. Well, there went half weeks of productivity down the drain (Usually the attack goes away in a day, now the aftermath of the attack lasted for several days). Maybe the anxiety pills would've helped me recovering from the attack faster.
I realized I've also gone through some dissociative/depersonalisation symptoms, thanks to this attack. Like I've switched to a different server at a mmorpg. I know that everything is the same like before, but it feels different. It's very hard to pin point the feeling exactly. It's, well.. Dissociative. I'm sure the feeling will return to normal at one point, or that this "new feeling" (not necessarily better, mind you) will become a new normal and that it stops feeling different due time.
The other self inflicted medication, would be to try an antihistamine product because it sounds more like allergies that you are describing than an anxiety attack. Of course, I'm not saying it's that, but the two are often combined. I'm suffering terribly now, and its not even the end of March and the clocks haven't even gone forwards. There's also been snow. A panic attack can be brought on by the sudden onset of SAD. A build up of a lack of dopamine in the brain, that either says you're not getting enough sleep, or vitamin D.(Lack of sunlight). Try squeezing a stress ball or buy an SAD lamp. Can be lava, but just remember to turn it off before you sleep for ten hours, or you could feel some slight heat radiation.. I've often let myself get so fascinated, I end up getting eye strain or the like.
Thanks for your advice. I'm having yet another anxiety attack again. It seems I have these at least once or twice a month.
This time it's because a short time ago I was offered a job practise position via relations. This made me really hopeful of getting the place (however it isn't 100 % sure yet). It would open many huge doors for me. I told some of the study colleagues of mine of the good news and one of them mentioned to me that he's looking for a practise place too and afterwards asked me in private what is the place I was suggested the practise position. Since everyone else now knew anyways and it would be easy for him to get this information from our mutual friends, I told him too of the place. He mentioned that he knows some staff there and that they are good people.
Now I'm hellbent on the fear that he will apply there too and that he will somehow try to get past me to get the position due to his relations there. This would be horrible! I couldn't believe he would do this, we've known for many years, but he can be a very opportunistic fellow and also good at manipulating people. He however seems to respect me. But now I'm just thinking over and over of a moment where the practise place offerer contacts me, "Hi! Another person had applied here recently and we have decided to choose him over you. We wish you good luck in finding another place."
I've been having the anxiety attack since the meeting and haven't been able to focus on studying at all. I hope that a good night sleeps will clear my head.
Hi there, I hope you're feeling a better by the time you read this.
When you feel these attacks happen, do you notice any odd effects such as having trouble understanding or producing speech, actions that are normally simple that you suddenly can't do, or other sensory distortions? The reason I ask is because the way you describe the "come down" after the attacks, with the dissociation and long recovery time, sounds quite similar to a partial shut-down rather than a typical panic attack (or maybe a combination of the two.) I mistook my shut-downs for panic attacks for a long time - they can be triggered by stress in a similar way, but are really a less dramatic version of an autistic "melt-down". I'm assuming here that you have an autistic spectrum condition, and I could be way off the mark, but I'd be happy to explain more if my suggestion rings any bells with you (a search of the forum for "shut down" should find you some useful hits too.)
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