I Think I Will Be Better Off Dead

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How I suppose to deal with life? I’m having anxiety everyday, I still need to look for a doctor, I need a social worker too & dealing with taking care of my cat with her meowing can REALLY HURT my ears. Her new thing is to hide in my bathtub & attack me behind the shower curtain, my toilet is next to the bathtub. When she scratches me, I lose it & yell at her, cuz I’m angry at her. There is alot of things I have to deal with, my sister thinking she knows almost everything about me & claiming I can be bad, she thinks she knows what best for me, when she texts me, she expects me to understand her. She in charge of my trust fund, my trust fund won’t last forever, so I still need SSI, the trust fund is in my mom’s name. When my sister wrote me a check, she made a Very Big Mistake, if the SSI saw it, I would be in VERY BIG trouble. She is not responsible enough anymore, she have alot of health problems too, she need to leave me alone, she need to take care of herself. I wish I wasn’t losing a fighting battle. I feel like I’m at my breaking point. I think I’m better off dead.

...I'm sorry, Kitty .

If your cat bothers you sometimes, something that works for me is to lead your cat to another part of the house and give them catnip. I buy a container and sprinkle a big pinch of it onto the ground, my cat goes crazy for the stuff. He leaves me alone for a bit when I do that.
Another thing, cats react better to hisses, so next time you feel like telling try hissing instead.

^this

Cats are very easily distracted so maybe you could get a laser pointer in the toilet so you can entertain the cat while you do your business

(((Kitty)))

Hugs

You are not better off dead. Life just sucks sometimes, it will eventually pass. I've had suicide attempts so when I saw the title of your post I had to respond because I know what it's like to reach out to others (in any way) and get no response. Don't kill yourself. Maybe you were just being dramatic and you weren't being serious like I thought. I hope so.

Kitty, I have faith in you, you can DO IT!

Kitty,

You are a good person, and your kitty needs you! That's worth living for!

If I’m good, why my sister thinks I can be bad? She thinks I’m bad, cuz of the past. And she thinks she REALLY KNOWS me & know what best for me. My cat deserves better than me, I keep forgetting to feed her can food, I’m not good at remembering to do her litter. I can’t do anything anymore, I’m worthless, I’m not worth saving.

Yes, you are worth saving. Just imagine how unhappy your sister and your cat would be without you there. So what if somebody else doesn’t forget to feed the cat? We all have at some point, and your cat has a special bond with you that nobody else can replace. This shows how much you are worth.

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way, Kitty. It will get better, I promise.

That's your sister's opinion not a fact, so please don't devalue yourself because of this. Life can be difficult sometimes but degrading yourself from past experiences won't help so try not to dwell on these things. Try to find a doctor or some other form of support as a problem gets better when its shared with others. Anxiety is a pain as it sometimes makes thoughts seem more real than they actually are. Please don't give up yet, I think you're a good person and your first post really made me feel like you want to overcome this