Anyone who conquered ptsd without therapy?

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05 Jun 2018, 10:29 am

I am not a new member, I have been here for a while. Because of my limited knowledge and intelligence, I can hardly post something interesting so I avoid trying at all.

There's a reason I am posting again- It's ptsd. It's eating me alive. I am dirt poor and can't afford therapy currently so I am looking for help here. Is there anyone here who learned to deal with ptsd without therapy? It would be very helpful for me if you could give me some advice.

My ptsd is caused by bullying mainly. In school people were horrible to me. I was unable to deal with those problems due to my autism. It kept going on and on till I graduated from school. I still meet some of those bullies sometimes, they still make fun of me. One of the bullies even sent me a friend request on fb. It takes all my strength to not snap and do something that would send me to prison.

I am in uni currently and things haven't got any better. I always stand out in any group work , my lack of communication and focus at the task at hand is a dead giveaway that I have serious mental issues. People easily spot this and use it to hurt me. Sometimes they gang up and start arguments. I always lose, no matter how hard I try.

For some reason, my mind could deal with these feelings before. I have lost that power now and can't focus at anything anymore. I sometimes feel pure anger at the sh***y life I was handed. I am not kidding. It's red hot, blinding anger accompanied by pain.

I have a huge workload form university and this problem is preventing me from getting anything done.

Thanks for your time. Please don't tell me to go to my university Councillor. Anything but that.



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05 Jun 2018, 10:59 am

One thing that used to calm me down was reading a guy called J.Krishnamurti. It helped me with the blinding hot anger that you mention. A couple of pages in I could always feel my blood pressure really drop down and I could get my focus back. It's not a religion and he's not a guru, just a good advocate for peace.



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06 Jun 2018, 5:46 am

domineekee wrote:
One thing that used to calm me down was reading a guy called J.Krishnamurti. It helped me with the blinding hot anger that you mention. A couple of pages in I could always feel my blood pressure really drop down and I could get my focus back. It's not a religion and he's not a guru, just a good advocate for peace.


Thanks but I can't even read properly because of the flashbacks I keep having. That's how severe my problem has become.



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06 Jun 2018, 6:20 am

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"For some reason, my mind could deal with these feelings before"

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"I sometimes feel pure anger"


short, i'd conclude its the anger that makes the problem (and its the only thing you can work on), find out how you can make better use of the anger, not suppress it but redirect it, eg workout, cycling, martial arts, dancing, or anything you could like if given the effort
physical effort gives the mind the necessairy energy to get out of negative thoughtloops,
maybe just a short time, one day maybe, so it's usefull to turn it into a regular habit



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06 Jun 2018, 11:09 am

I watch a certain type of relaxation video called ASMR. These are videos designed to give you tingles but also relax you and help you sleep. People in the comments section with Ptsd say it works wonders. It may seem a little bit weird when you first try it but give it a chance. You might come to love it!



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06 Jun 2018, 1:13 pm

I don’t know. I have it too, and it’s horrible, you don’t trust anyone.

Whatever you do don’t accept their friend request on facebook.

The best thing I have noticed is completely ghosting people who aren’t good for you.

It’s easy to end up with noone though, which I suppose is better than the former.

Best of luck. Hope you’re okay.



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06 Jun 2018, 1:14 pm

Sarahsmith wrote:
I watch a certain type of relaxation video called ASMR. These are videos designed to give you tingles but also relax you and help you sleep. People in the comments section with Ptsd say it works wonders. It may seem a little bit weird when you first try it but give it a chance. You might come to love it!


I agree with this. I love these!!



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06 Jun 2018, 1:18 pm

hale_bopp wrote:
I don’t know. I have it too, and it’s horrible, you don’t trust anyone.

Whatever you do don’t accept their friend request on facebook.

The best thing I have noticed is completely ghosting people who aren’t good for you.

It’s easy to end up with noone though, which I suppose is better than the former.

Best of luck. Hope you’re okay.


Thanks. I blocked the bullies ID the moment I got a friend request from him. Unfortunately I still see him in real life sometimes. I need to leave my country. Too many horrible memories here. But I don't have the resources to do that.



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06 Jun 2018, 2:00 pm

You need some corrective emotional experiences to replace the bad memories with good, or at least neutral, ones.

Whether this is something you can do, unassisted by therapy, while still in uni, I don't know. It is too much for some people.

Where are you to get these non-bullying experiences? I will only share one observation, but I'm not going to claim it would be right for everyone. My daughter, although raised in a non-religious home, has found pleasant and positive experiences in a religious group. In middle school she went to a Christian church, but now has found her spiritual home with an alternative group. The people are kind and nobody makes fun of her.

Could you try something like that?

Another suggestion would be a mental health support group. Depression support, anxiety support, autism support, PTSD support. Where I live they have some of these as a nonprofit community service, and some are also offered at no charge to students at the university.

You might also look for a meditation group, and go regularly.

Remember that in any case, and even in therapy, it takes time. Stick with it. If one place doesn't feel right, find another.

Nobody desires you to remain in an emotional hell forever. You can find peace, and you should. Good luck.


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06 Jun 2018, 9:00 pm

I had mild PTSD from a car crash where I was a passenger. Everytime since then I felt a lot of anxiety riding in a car, especially going through intersections, this was during a period where I did not own my own car. Though a couple years later, after driving my friend's car and driving rental cars, that anxiety has since disappeared.