I sometimes worry about a bad thing I done years ago

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This is not my main worry, and a couple of years could by when I don't think about it, but sometimes the memory comes back to me and I feel overwhelmed with guilt.

Back when I was 15 I beat up this boy from my school who I didn't even know, on the way home from school. I was walking along with my cousin, and these 2 boys were walking behind us, and one of them kept touching my bum. I just lost it, and I started pushing and hitting him. He seemed rather shocked by my sudden reaction. I don't know what had gotten into me, as I wasn't a violent child. I think I was just under stress, because my mum and dad had recently split up and so we had money worries, and my schoolwork and homework was getting rather hard to keep up with, and the people who were supposed to be my friends were being mean to me, and I often got picked on on my way home from school in the past, and I'd just had enough. That was probably why I lashed out.
I never got to apologise to the boy because I didn't recognise him after that and he never acknowledged me after that. I know he has probably forgotten about it years ago, but what if he hadn't? I didn't physically hurt him, but what if it hurt him emotionally? What if he was a sensitive boy who wasn't the sort to fight, and he still hasn't forgotten it? I mean, I haven't thought about it for years but suddenly I have. He might have kids of his own now and he might be telling them "...when I was young I got beaten up by a random girl who I didn't know, right in the street. It upset me."

Or maybe it has taught him not to touch girls bums. But touching girls bums seemed to be a common thing among boys at my school so I don't think he deserved to be beaten up for it.

There was a perv who used to grab my ass all the time in the hallways. When we had a class about sexual assult he got scared and stopped doing it. Then a girl I didnt like slapped my but which I thought was strange of her. She didnt like me either and called me a b***h. I dont know why she slapped my butt I thought it was so weird.

I think its okay that you beat that guy for touching your bum. Its only okay to touch someones bum if your going out with them.

He sounds like a little creep who got what was coming to him.

How could you feel you have done anything wrong? This boy violated your personal space. He's lucky he didn't get all his teeth knocked out.

Like someone else said above, you did him a favor. Getting away with touching your bum could have had much worse consequences later in his life. And you did all the females of the world that he could ever possibly encounter, also a favor, by reducing the population of gropers by one.

So please stop worrying about this incident, and allow yourself to feel good about who and what you are. From all the messages of yours that I have ever read, you are a good, decent, principled person and a contributing member of society. You deserve a "forum member of the month" award.

Well I just hope he realised years ago that he shouldn't have been touching my butt in the first place, which hopefully might have been why he never acknowledged me after that.

But I was the kindhearted teenage girl who voluntarily gave up my recess periods to sit in the special ed room and chat to some younger kids that had disabilities and needed someone to talk to, because they were a magnet for bullies and social rejection. The learning support tutors were very pleased with me, and I enjoyed it too.

That's definitely something to be proud of.