I want my life back

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I want my life back to where it was 2 years ago, when I was properly medicated, my husband had a job, and everyone was happy. I also want to be able to hold a job of my own without having emotional outbursts. Problem is I don't even know what makes me happy anymore. I want to say video games, but they can only last me for so long. I know my husband makes me happy too, but there are times where I become frustrated of him.

I am supposed to see my counselor next week, but I highly doubt talking to her will make me feel better. I want to feel happy like I did when I got married. I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry you are having a rough time.

Seeing your counselor next week is not going to magically make you happy - as you know. But what you might do with her is develop a goal and a game plan. If you are not properly medicated now, that has to be addressed. You can also develop more control over emotional outbursts. Things that could help with that include CBT, breathing exercises, and the meds also.

Best of luck. You do deserve the life you want. Be prepared for some hard work to make it happen, though.

My husband and I talked, and he thinks it's the hormones and high anxiety talking here. I have just taken meds that are an "as needed" dose, and I am starting to feel better about the situation. My mom and I also left a message to my med doctor, hopefully he will pick up soon.

Well, so far, my anti-anxiety meds barely help, same with my counselor. My husband got a fun volunteer opportunity, and now I miss volunteering in general. I want to go back to the no-kill animal shelter I was volunteering at, and talk to the women who run it and ask them for another chance. I left because my husband and I had to move to another county, but now we're back in the Cleveland area, and now I feel like s**t because of it.

I had a volunteer opportunity lined up for me in the botanical garden's library earlier this year, but I was having a crisis, and had to turn it down, and now I am sad about it. I am also jealous of another user here, because they have a job at a library, even though they hated it there. I want to be the one sorting books and putting them back on the shelves, and I want to clean up after the cats and play with them at the animal shelter.

Honestly, I don't care what anyone says about God; he is a conniving bastard who only serves to make autistic people miserable. The only people he cares about is himself, the Kardashians, the f*****g Royals, and the Trump family, and no one else.

I will try to talk to my support administrator about volunteer opportunities, but I seriously doubt that he will get back to me.

I'm sorry you are having a lousy time of it now. You probably already know that anti-anxiety meds need to be adjusted to what you need, so please be sure to tell your prescriber what is or isn't working. Another trick to using anti-anxiety meds is to take them before you get anxious. It is easier to prevent anxiety than it is to knock it down. These are just tricks from when I was doing hospice nursing and are not meant to be medical advice. Just ideas to discuss with your medical provider.

I hope you can find some volunteer work with the kitties. The ones in shelters so appreciate the attention!

I'm sorry. I don't know the way out of your predicament, only that I admire you for your desire to help out. Taking care of lost animals is something I know a little about as I adopted both of my cats from the humane society. One in particular was still very feral when we took her in, though she is much calmer now. I am sorry I can't do more, but if you have anything else you need to get off your chest, I always keep my ears open, and I am sure everyone else on this forum does too.