I HATE Having Aspergers!!

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My Aspergers can RUIN my life! This morning, I was having a bad mood swing, then music turned my day around. My caregiver didn’t showed up. Anyway, I was happy then my bad mood swing came back, my caregiver called me, she got the days mixed up. And another bad thing happened & another one, I started wishing I was someone else, who was prettier, skinny, no Aspergers, no Psoriasis & to have a boyfriend. I also became hard on myself. It feels like everyone can be happy with a relationship, but me, I cannot have relationship, I’m not allow to have one.

You are not prevented from having a relationship with someone.

Dammit!

You're both good-looking! LOL

That's a hard thing to deal with, knowing that you just can't do what other people do. It gets me too, you can always fight the odds and try to fit in the world, but sometimes making it though the day is the best you can hope for.

look, there is no such thing as "not allowed to". ya, disability puts u to a handycap. i got a few here. and then, i am the caregiver. feeling that way is what does happen to us. u at least realise ur mood swings. very uncomfortable thing to happen to u. i just dont wanna write down all the s**t that trains through my head when i am on a round. just got out of one. feeling is fresh, and i feel u. please believe me in that (ya we do have a tendency of fooling ourselves that we never can be even understood. we can. and not even only by our own kind). i'd feel u even if i was at peake, tho my swings are violent, multi-dismensional and frequent. sometimes it helps to lie down and not get up if u can afford that. lie and let it wash over u. there will be another peake. i've seen enough NT who have bad stuff around them to know its no paradise. only that they dont have this juicy excuse we've got xD (that was an attempt to make a joke btw). on another day u will be like "oh i LOVE my aspergerian brain, its sooo oumpf!). carry on!

Kitty, your post hits really close to home for me, especially when you said that you aren't allowed to have a relationship. I can't even begin to tell you how many times I've felt like this; I always tell myself that having an ASD, not to mention that I already suffer from low self-esteem to begin with, will forever keep me from finding that one person I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with. I tell myself that only the neurotypical people who are breathtakingly beautiful are the only ones allowed to have relationships. On one hand I know that it's total BS, but at the same time it's so hard to shake the negativity. Anyway, long story short, just know that you aren't alone in hating your Asperger's.

I hate having Asperger's too. I just cannot happily accept it. It's a real life-destroyer, unless you are exceptionally intelligent with it or have the ability to hyperfocus on a special interest or something.

Yeah aspergers sucks wish I was normal