I Want to Die!

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I REALLY CANNOT HANDLE things anymore! I’m Sooo SICK & Tired of dealing with my sister, she always have to get her way & I’m tired of my caregiver, she wants to force me to talk right & to be somebody I’m not, my sister & my caregiver been talking, my sister thinks I been disrespectful to her & NOTHING is my caregiver fault, I’m always the BAD guy with my sister, she wants to believe the worse in me! WHY! Is she still jealous of me? She was jealous when we were kids, our parents spent more time with me, it’s NOT my fault that I have Cerebral Pasly & Psoriasis. I didn’t know she was jealous when I was a kid. She got jealous again when I moved out of my mom’s house in 2007, she was jealous, cuz I lived on my own for six years & live near a shopping center, I had everything walking distance, library, movie theater, restaurants, my bank, ice cream shops, retailer stores & more places. She didn’t live on her own, she moved out of our parents house when she was 18, she moved into a sorority house then she lived with her husband then she lived with only her son, she living on her own now for the first time & she almost 53. I been wondering if she got jealous of me again, she seems to hold on to the past, when we were living together after our mom died, she told me that don’t live in the past, when she & her son went on vacation, she told me I owe her something that happened over 10 years ago, she force me to stay home to babysit all of the pets, there were 5 pets, I almost forgot to feed the fish, more than once, I hated taking care of her dog & she had 2 birds. She keeps bringing up the past & what I did. I cannot handle everything, my sister, my caregiver, my dad, my apartment, pains in my feet & lower legs. And dealing with life with Aspergers & dealing with my boyfriend. My birthday is in almost a week, there is NOTHING to celebrate, I wish I was dead

Get drunk and listen to your favourite music, it's the only cure.

To my mind this seems really relevant to what's going on with her. It sounds like she has issues with being by herself and that she might have a mentality that blames you for it. But it's not your fault. Don't let her make unfair demands of you and maybe put some distance between you two if that could work. If she doesn't have someone to cling on to or make into her punching bag she may be able to confront some of her issues. Of course, I'm only talking as a remote party with limited insight. If you have someone you can trust the opinion of to talk through in detail about it that may help.

My sister does have bi polar, she was off her medication once, she called me evil, she thought I was going hurt her dog & threaten to call the police on me, she also said I was born evil too. We don’t see each other, we have not seen each other in 4 years But I have to text her, my mom put her in charge of the trust fund.