Some frustration I encountered, just a bit upset about it.
I posted this in my Facebook, but I feel this is a better place to talk about it. This is gonna be a long one. So I need to talk about something that has been bothering me all day. I hope someone will understand. I'm sorry if this post gets too long, but I really need to talk. So I have lost all of my motivation, and I was targeted by a very ignorant person. So I went to another website to join a gaming community. it went well for the first day or so. It was fun and I liked talking to the other members of the group. The other night I posted a gameplay video of mine and shortly after went to bed. When I went online in the morning, I found out I was banned. It's weird, I read all the rules, none of them said I couldn't post it. In fact, many other members had posted many gameplay videos with no problem what so ever. At first I didn't think it had anything to do with the video, other members posted videos, and mine wasn't any different. I have to say, many of theirs had far worse language and content then anything in my video. But here's the thing, I checked my video, it had one dislike on YouTube, now I run a very small channel. And I'm certain that dislike appeared at about the same time I was banned from the community I shared it with. Anyway, I asked the admin of that group, why I was banned. I asked him what I did wrong and why I didn't get a warning if I had something wrong. Well, he just told me "You have to read the rules" So I told him, I did read them, and that none of them appeared to have been broken. So I asked him if he could explain why I was a banned. He refused, accused me of being "Intentionally obtuse" told me not to contact them ever again. And blocked me from communicating with them. No reason for my ban was given, no warning, no explanation. It is so frustrating, and I am 100% certain I was targeted and wrongfully banned for unknown reasons. Later a friend told me that after hearing how it all went down, said that chances are that admin was having a bad day and was looking for someone small to take his anger out on, or he was power tripping, or likely both of those, since they tend to go hand in hand. I can't stop thinking about it. I have always been the type of person who wants to see justice, or at least get answers to why bad things like that had to happen. But I never got any answers. What bugs me the most, is I enjoyed participating in that group and talking to fellow gamers. But the admin seems to have not read his own rules, so now I am banned from that community for life. And I didn't even break any rules! I don't understand why some people have to be so ignorant. He couldn't even tell me what I did wrong... I still don't think it had anything to do with the video, I think the admin was looking for someone to screw over. Likely just to make himself feel better about how immature and ignorant he is. A mature, polite, and responsible human being would have explained the situation like a proper adult and tried to resolve the issue peacefully. I even told him if I was an admin, I would have given a warning and told the person what they did wrong, before considering any sort of ban. None of what he said to me made any sense. He even said I had plenty of warning, but not once did he actually warn me, or tell me what I did wrong, or explain anything. Just banned me. I feel so depressed because until now, I thought I had found a good community to be part of. I guess if anything, that's the only thing I did wrong. I just need some help to cheer up after all this happened to me. I haven't been able to cheer myself up yet. It bothers me too much. I hope someone understands and can help me feel better. I would be very grateful. Thank you for reading this. I know it may not seem like a big issue, and I know it really isn't. But my mind won't let me stop thinking about it. Like, I really want to know what I did wrong, but at the same time, it really feels like I did not do anything wrong, and that site's admin was just too immature and dishonest to politely explain the situation to me. Honestly, if he just would have told me what I did wrong, I would have accepted it and moved on. But now I just don't know what to think. I'm so confused right now.
Some people just don't like me and that's okay, it means I'm genuine. It's not always fair, but that's how it is. In situations like these, we might not get an explanation, because the truth may be even more confusing. Some people just will never like me, no matter what. But, I was told a long time ago, "if everybody likes you, you're doing something wrong." That made me feel better.
You put yourself out there and that's huge. It takes a lot of courage to do that. Now, you have to let go of the outcome. It didn't turn out the way you wanted it to this time, maybe next time it will have a better outcome. Stay close to people who appreciate and accept you, stay away from heartless, mean-spirited people who probably hate themselves more than they hate you.

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Disagreeing with you doesn't mean I hate you, it just means we disagree.
Neurocognitive exam in May 2019, diagnosed with ASD, Asperger's type in June 2019.
'Having a bad day' is never an excuse to be a dick like that. That mod should be reported. He shouldn't be a mod if he treats people like that. The reason he didn't tell you why he banned you is because there was no reason to ban you because you most likely didn't do anything wrong.
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