Recently my mom had told me that both she and my dad struggled to be positive in their younger days, and therefore said that she felt bad that she passed it on to me.
I do in fact tend to think more glass half empty. Example of this would be:
How much better my life would be if this or that wouldn’t have happened
Irritated that I can’t find a girlfriend, even though people have given me reason to believe that that’ll change someday.
Often thinking about people who have had worse things happen to them than what I have been dealt.
I have actually just came up with this statement that I have never heard anyone say, that we are all a slave to life’s circumstances. I mean, the pandemic is a prime example of it.
Even in the times in my life where I do feel alright about myself, there’s eventually always something that irks at me. So many annoyances, huge disappointments or moments of being screwed over and I can’t help but think that things could be better. It’s just too hard for me to think/feel positive more often.
That’s all I can think of to say at the moment.
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Early 20s male with Asperger’s and what feels like a mood disorder
30 Jun 2020, 2:55 am
