I'm separated from my family. They all live in a far away country where I don't have legal residence and can't go to. And they can't afford to come here. I haven't seen any of them in many years.
I tried to join a local support group for adults with ASD. I got kicked out. I don't even know whether I did something wrong or they are just @$$holes.
My therapists made me join a support group. Everyone else in the group was there because of alcohol and drugs problems.
My ex-fiance was emotionally abusive. She gaslighted and manipulated me. I didn't realize that until after the relationship ended. The only reason I dated her was because I was desperate and afraid of being alone forever. After she broke up with me, I knew no other woman would ever want to be with me. The relationship ended eleven years ago, and I haven't dated anyone since then. She told people I abused her and cheated on her. Everyone believed her when she lied and nobody believed me when I told the truth. I lost nearly every friend I had.
Every time I was interested in someone I was rejected. I'm not bothered that I was turned down by any particular individual, but rather that I've been collectively rejected by everyone I've ever had feelings for while everyone else around has been dating and getting married and starting families. And the more time has passed, the harder it keeps getting to meet single women at all.
I've been homeless at least seven time in the past ten years.
I only have one friend.
06 Sep 2020, 9:15 pm
