Wish I could move back home

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My parents live out of town. When ever I come here I feel safe from the world. I wish I could stay here. But mom doesn’t want me to live here and if I did I would probably lose my disability money. I live in a big town. It’s like a small city. I get overwhelmed there. And it just seems like all I’m trying to do is survive, and people have to drag me down any chance they get. All I want to do is live. That’s all. And that is too much to ask according to them. I’ve heard so many people say they hate my town. I hate it now too. They don’t even have books on anthropology, existential philosophy, ethnobotany or anything cool like that at the library. Whatever culture that town had, coronavirus got rid of. The only thing to do there is drink and shop. I never made any true friends in that town. It just seems like all I do is suffer and get kicked around by people. And all I am trying to do is stay alive. It’s like the old Foo Fighters song lyrics go, “I’m alone and I’m an easy target.”

You need to live in the country?

I’d like to yes. I was always happier there.

Why don’t you talk about things like ethnobiology or anthropology on WP.

Never thought to do that for some reason. I tend to get wrapped up way too much in my own world. It’s not healthy. Like maybe a therapist would help me but I had some bad experiences with therapists and it makes me not want to go. But yeah I’ll try talking about stuff I’m interested in on here other than my problems. But I just felt like talking to someone on here tonight. I haven’t been doing well lately. Sometimes I’m worried I just won’t survive.

You’ve survived so far.

Have you all gotten much snow?

We were getting mild spring like weather for half the winter and then it has turned bitterly cold and storm after storm here. And the ice and snow just won’t disappear off the ground. Which is weird because usually it just snows and then rains right afterwards here. It hardly ever snows in this part of eastern Canada. But we’ve been getting lots of storms this winter.

I know it’s difficult when snow and ice don’t go away.

My mother was to get a shot today...but she felt like she had to cancel because of all the snow and ice.

really? We’re supposed to get a snowstorm tomorrow actually. Maybe it’s blowing up from New York. Lol

Sometimes it’s just about peoples interests ....... other times it’s just getting though things until the next hour night day, pick your choice . People here are generally kind and like to help out , in the ways they might be familiar with.
It is ideal to want to go back to a safer kinder. More familiar place . It’s a natural thing . Especially when life is getting to be feeling overwhelmed......... try to hang in there.... if your home now , it might be just a brief respite
From day to day stuff maybe .

So what you are saying is just take it day by day? I guess I could try that. Just one day at a time. I think I can do that.

That’s probably a good idea.

Take it day to day.

And try to use your mind more. Do research on the Internet about things you’re interested in.

I never knew you were into anthropology.

Yes thanks Kraftie about suggesting talking about it here. The politics, philosophy, religion section here looks really interesting as well.

Last edited by Sarahsmith on 19 Feb 2021, 9:29 pm, edited 1 time in total.

Take notice of the things and times you are able to keep outta the bad parts of the day . Kraftie has good suggestions
Pretty regularly.

I saw the weather forecast for your general area. It doesn't seem like you will get more than 15 cm of snow; you'll probably get less.

I would say it would be better if you went to the "science" section, rather than PPR. PPR tends to be inhabited by people who are overly political.

I know nothing about politics so if anyone tried to discuss that with me I just wouldn’t say anything. Lol