I'm getting worse

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I'm 41 and I'm at the point where I just want to take a break from the world. Socially interacting anymore feels awful in person, I do enough to get by but that's about all I can do these days. It's either I can't think of anything to say or I don't know how to say it.

My life consists of going to work, going and getting groceries/gas, and staying at home. I can do Walmart or Kroger in the late evening when I get off work, but during the day, hell to the no. I've driven by Walmart and have seen a sea of cars, just seeing it almost gives me a panic attack.

When I'm at home I feel happy, it's just my cat and I. No loud mouth idiots, loud noises, weird smells and stuff like that. I feel at work, I'm getting worse and it's becoming too socially demanding. I work in warehouse and have done so for many years. It's to the point where I feel I need to get trained in a job, I can do at home.

I'm just over people in general, the 24/7 news cycle, politics, COVID, and the mayhem of the world. I need to move to rural North Dakota or something, I don't know.

I feel with age, my condition is just taking it's toll on me.

Well I don't have any advice but I get it, people can be exhausting. I wish you could have more time at home with your cat. Also work hours ore ridiculous they should be reduced and pay made better idk, but yeah unfortunately I cannot say anything to help but I think your frustration is legitimate, it really is unfair.

I'm a couple years younger and starting to feel the same. Are you diagnosed?

I'm 36 and I feel the same.

I'm feeling a serious decay in my ability to handle complex tasks (e.g.: preparing my taxes, programming an automatic pet feeder). In my case, I attribute that to caretaking a spouse with Alzheimer's, but also to pandemic fatigue. For those who are feeling they just can't cope, ask yourself if this may be pandemic related. I think that's a bigger factor than most of us realize, but the good news is, there's an end in sight.

So my point is, if this represents a decline in your function compared to before Covid, try to keep the faith that things might get better. King Kat 1, you might also explore vocational rehabilitation in your area and this is one time where having a diagnosis might help - it might qualify you for services. Those services might include retraining into a work from home job.

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No, I've not yet sought one. I really don't have the money right now and I'm not sure how much insurance would cover.

I definitely have some sort of burnout issue I think. Everyone around me, just tells me to suck it up and stay the course. It's like I'm totally dismissed in life and told "everyone goes through that". Whatever I say or do is never right.

I saw a counselor a couple years ago, it helped a little but I still have the same issues at work. Also, I can't let go of how an EX friend of mine treated me so horribly(oddly, I suspect he COULD be on the spectrum as well) after I helped him so much. I also have a lot of resentment towards a couple of people at my work and some family.

Your home life sounds nice from what you described. Just being alone with your cat and no crazy outside world bothering you. Not trying to belittle your pain, it’s just the way you described it sounds nice.

I wish you all the best. Sorry you’re feeling this way right now. I hope you can find the peace you’re looking for.

Thank you!