Almost Cried In Front Of Coworkers

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I've been getting burnt out over work because I work in a loud AF factory, and trying to process everything while staying productive is exhausting to me. Today my partner at work that shares a clothes bin with me ended up snapping at me twice, and I felt so stupid because it was completely understandable for her to snap at my dumbass, but I'm just so exhausted that I can't process anything, plus apparently me and my aunt might have COVID which has been making me dissociate.

Her snapping at me was over something that I should be able to do without thought after a month of working there, and over me not getting her nonverbal cues to move something. I got really frustrated at myself and eventually had to try really hard to not start crying, and then her and a couple of my coworkers kept glancing at me. They were talking later and were pointing at me, and now I want to just crawl in a hole and f*****g die because I'm so embarrassed and feel like a giant 4 year old.

My coworkers was also a lot nicer to me afterwards, which makes me feel like s**t because I didn't want her to do that, she was right to get angry at me, I was just upset at myself. Now I'm worried I'm going to be told to work with the girl I was working with when I first got there (which is fine, but she doesn't speak English or correct things I do wrong), and that the girl I'm working with currently will think I'm a guilt trippy baby and not want to work with me or help me ever again.

Hugs

I cry easily too.
Even worse, I sometimes cover it up by seeming angry.
Let's hope your almost-tears help all the employees to have more compassion.
It seems they were being empathetic, rather than thinking you were inept.

I empathise with you. I get tearful whenever someone snaps at me, then I beat myself up for making such a dumb mistake and I feel embarrassed and bad afterwards. It's so hard not to cry. I usually hold the tears back the best I can while I'm finding a place to go to let it out in private, like a restroom. I'm a very sensitive person, but I don't want people to feel they have to walk on eggshells around me, so if the person snapping at me wasn't personal, I don't tell anyone in the same room/environment how I feel because I don't want to be treated differently either.

Saying that you want to crawl into a hole and f*****g die is OK (unless you literally do it of course), as it's good to let the frustration out. Be harsh with yourself. That's what I do. Just don't follow through on anything.

I think they'll feel bad if they feel responsible for making you cry. I hope today is going better for you!

I have my moments like that in work too. It doesn't happen often now though. I just adjusted to ignoring stuff like assuming it happens in a lot of work places to a lot of other people anyway.

Its ok. The best men cry. Do not worry. Emotion shows you have a heart.

I went to work today and it was okay. I was a lot less frustrated and my partner at work was a lot more patient with me, and more clear about what she wanted me to do.