My Asperger’s makes it extremely hard to deal with addiction

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This is making me suicidal. I started drugs at 13, now I am 18 and it progressed due to serious mental issues I ended up using methamphetamine at 17 for about 4 months straight. Idk what to do this is making me want to kill myself. I am 8 months off it but I do phenibut and drink everyday. This combined with my isolation is killing me. Does anyone have any advice? Should I just kill myself in this case?

You're way too young to just give up. Suicide, to me, is almost always a total waste. In your case, I'm sure it is.

My 87-year-old mother just got a broken hip, and just recently had surgery. She told me she wanted to kill herself. I told her it wasn't worth it. She still has a vital brain.

You're only 18 years old. Very young. I used to think like you, though I didn't take drugs or drink.

What is it that makes you drink and do drugs?

Do you have something that REALLY makes you happy?

Hey I don’t have anything that makes me happy really. Suicide is on my mind a lot these days, feeling like I f****d up my life and I don’t know which steps to take. I’m gonna try and get on lexapro today when I call my psychiatrist. I’m just really scared and my mind doesn’t feel right.

How have you screwed up your life?

I dropped out of highschool and I’m convinced I developed a severe mental illness that is ruining my life. I don’t even feel like a human anymore and I just feel it hard to function in a day to day life anymore. This makes me extremely suicidal. I don’t even know if I have Asperger’s. Maybe I have severe autism

You can either go back to high school, or take the GED. All is not lost, even though it probably seems that way to you.

I hope others will also chime in, and try to help you.

Many people have been in a hole, and have gotten out of it.

My mom finished my highschool for me, I get my diploma in aigist. I just feel lost in life, my brain malfunctioned from all the drugs I took, I’m afraid I have permanent brain damage now

You can't determine that until you get examined by a doctor.

I feel it tho, I’m not the same as I was

Many times, when one is anxious or depressed, one feels like one is deteriorating in mind.

I've felt this way-----and the feeling turned out to be incorrect.

I wish you could talk to somebody about this. I'm sorry you're going through this.

sohilsingh469, I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. Four months of meth will do that to you. Alcohol doesn't help, except in the short term.

I'm gonna have to agree with Kortie; 18 is way too young to give up. I didn't do drugs as a teenager (waited until college for those), but I did leave home at 15 and had it pretty rough for a while. I didn't finish high school either at the time.

All that said, it can feel so bad that the only way out is suicide. And without support from others or something that you find interesting, life is pretty bleak. So I get that.

My wish for you is that you find something that gives you the strength to keep going. (In my case, it was just plain old being stubborn.) You are in a deep valley. You can't see what is over the hill. I'll be rooting for you.

I know a lot of people in their 50's and 60's that haven't touched hard drugs for decades. It's entirely possible to change and stay the course. Do it via whatever means works for you.. cold turkey, 12 steps/NA etc. If you slip backwards, try and try again.. the rest of your life is a very, Very, long time! So it's totally worth whatever effort it takes to clean up and put that chemical dependency chapter of your life behind you and move on.

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It is hard to be sober with asperger's I'll grant you that

Can you ask the doctors for help (ie prescription drugs) better than meth