I take it personally if I get blocked

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I feel like it is my fault for this really because I used to post on social media in the ''What's on your mind?'' space the feelings similar to what I have expressed on here, about my jealousy of certain things, having bad days etc.
I nearly always used it as means to express how I felt depending on what mood I was in while everyone else was posting more positive statuses and uploading nice photos. I continued doing it despite getting advice not to use it like a diary but I carried on.

I eventually stopped status posting all together but in the end resorted to messaging people, even people I didn't know because I felt like ''mutual friends'' were not always talking to me. I had people disappear from the chat line and then realised they are had possibly blocked me. I do know what I am doing and I am fully aware that what I write to people might be taken the wrong way by someone else. I would start getting defensive if I thought I had a condition like depression or something when I clearly don't have depression as I can still go and do things to pre-occupy myself. I was even more upset recently because someone thought I have a narcissistic personality disorder and then it came across like to them I must be a ''psychopath'' and then eventually we argued and then they blocked me.

People have reminded me time and again that what I do is still selfish because I am not always taking into account other people's feelings and the fact that other people have issues too to deal with and don't want to be bombarded by negative messaging by someone they don't really know. When people still say I am still selfish, it then makes me feel like I am a horrible and nasty human being who cares only about themselves and not his/her own fellow human beings.
I was only writing and sending messages because I wanted to talk to people and get them to understand me. But then again people have said they give me advice and then it seems to them I throw back in their faces and don't know what it is I want from people and continue getting the same subject being brought up which is not being addressed and its as though they become disillusioned by it and eventually stop talking to me altogether or block me which in end hurts my feelings when I know I shouldn't take it personally.

I am seem to think that is what is happening on here too, people just eventually stop messaging or posting on my threads because they are become possibly disillusioned by the things I have written about sometimes.

I think you need a healthy dose of "don't give a damn".

And no, you can't not telepathically read the feelings of 8 billion people. Everyone's feelings are hurt by something you can't know.

There can be various reasons why people stop replying to you. E.g. you may throw a wall of text at them (which I also often do). Try shorter messages maybe. Not everyone can/will deal with a wall of text (though some autists can).