Worried I'll regret having kids later

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Speaking as an uncle, I do see my sister when she is telling her 3 year old son what to do and what not to do, and when he misbehaves and has tantrums and so on and I can see how stressful it can be for her and sometimes it makes me feel like it would be too stressful for me and I don't know how my sister puts up with it when I probably wouldn't be able to put up with it. My sister doesn't have autism/aspergers and I don't know how those perhaps on here who have kids themselves manage to put up with it.

For the last few days we were in France and sometimes when we were out in public wondering around I kept thinking people were looking at me and then looking at my sister who was carrying her son around and thinking I might be the father when I'm not and my sister was the wife/partner and that I'm not setting a good example just letting her carry him around when she knows I wouldn't want to carry him. I do find it quite hard to interact and play with young children and even when he was a few months old I found myself unable to hold him properly which is embarrassing.

I seem to think people my age or my sister's age (late 20s and early 30s) are having kids anyway whether they want to or not because they don't want to leave it too late and regret it and put up with the ordeals of parenthood whether they want to or not. Here am I without any kids and without a partner and torn between having a child because I ''have'' to before its too late and not wanting a child.

I'm honestly of the opinion that if you have to legit worry about "regretting" having a child, or constantly think you can't handle one, then you can't handle one. I've pretty much sworn off having children because I worry about the same things, all the time. After giving it thought I realized that if I worry that badly about it, and I get so stressed out just by being around people dealing with the problems parenting comes with, then I will not be able to handle having a child. And I would much rather "miss out" on having a kid than unintentionally abuse/neglect them in some way because I can't handle having one. No one "has" to have kids, and I really think not everyone is meant to be a parent or "should" have kids.

^This. Exactly. I will never have kids, not only bc i don't have a motherly personality, but also bc my autism is genetic and i wouldn't be able to take care of a special needs Child. There is absolutely no support where i live for autistic people and i wouldn't wish the difficulty of living here on anyone.

I took to being a father surprisingly well. My partner dealt with all of the school and doctors side of things, I couldn't have coped with that, but at home it was fine.