Have you ever explained your symptoms to people and they just get dismissed?
"That's normal."
"I do that too!"
"Just try harder and act like an adult."
Like, yeah, I get that when I talk about having meltdowns and what they feel like specifically as an autistic person working a customer facing job, to you it might just seem like what a neurotypical retail employee experiences: mild to moderate anger at customer nonsense.
But no. When I say I have meltdowns, I mean I feel like a volcano under tremendous amounts of pressure and I will either shut down or start crying right in customer's faces unless given relief. I am angry, yeah, full of rage even, but the experience is so much more than just being angry. I wish I could articulate how mind numbingly extreme it is.
I promise you that meltdowns are not just being pissed and wanting to snap at the customer for copping an attitude.
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ASD level 1 & ADHD-C (professional dx), dyscalcula (self dx), very severe RSD.
Currently in early stages of recovering from autistic burnout.
RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | CAT-Q: 139 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)