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Rossall
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28 Sep 2022, 11:57 am

I've had over 8 years of this crap now. Voices in my head criticizing me and random pain and discomfort. Today it's extreme chest tightness making me feel like I'm going to have a heart attack. It's making my life unbearable and almost hoping my drinking kills me (preferably in my sleep).

Am I the only one getting this?


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28 Sep 2022, 11:58 am

Have you got ptsd


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28 Sep 2022, 12:01 pm

No, I've been targetted by someone, presumably because I'm an easy target. Alkie, on benefits, loner, all their boxes ticked.


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28 Sep 2022, 12:16 pm

Getting bad abdominal tension at the moment so god knows what my blood pressure is.


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28 Sep 2022, 12:34 pm

I wonder how to stop it


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28 Sep 2022, 12:38 pm

babybird wrote:
I wonder how to stop it

'you're very very good but you need to get a job' is what it repeatedly says along with 'DWP compliance computer'.

So if I managed to get a job maybe it would stop.


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28 Sep 2022, 12:45 pm

That's interesting.

Would you like to have a job


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28 Sep 2022, 12:51 pm

babybird wrote:
That's interesting.

Would you like to have a job
Yes, but the problem is I've had problems with concentration and making mistakes in every job I've had. Done all sorts: electronics, warehouse, kitchen porter, security guard, weed sprayer, machine operator but all have had problems. Maybe if I got a job that was 'disability confident' for my ADHD I would get somewhere.


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28 Sep 2022, 12:55 pm

Rossall wrote:
babybird wrote:
That's interesting.

Would you like to have a job
Yes, but the problem is I've had problems with concentration and making mistakes in every job I've had. Done all sorts: electronics, warehouse, kitchen porter, security guard, weed sprayer, machine operator but all have had problems. Maybe if I got a job that was 'disability confident' for my ADHD I would get somewhere.


Yes that's a great idea. I wonder if there are any services that could help you with this near where you live.


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28 Sep 2022, 12:58 pm

babybird wrote:
Rossall wrote:
babybird wrote:
That's interesting.

Would you like to have a job
Yes, but the problem is I've had problems with concentration and making mistakes in every job I've had. Done all sorts: electronics, warehouse, kitchen porter, security guard, weed sprayer, machine operator but all have had problems. Maybe if I got a job that was 'disability confident' for my ADHD I would get somewhere.


Yes that's a great idea. I wonder if there are any services that could help you with this near where you live.
I can't sign on at the Jobcentre atm as I'm over the £16,000 savings limit so can't get any help from them. I'm on PIP. The problem is I'm not very confident and if I took a job my PIP would probably get stopped so I could end up in the s**t.


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28 Sep 2022, 1:03 pm

Yeah it's a catch 22 situation.

Are there any places where you could offer help as a volunteer. I mean just for something to do. Can you drive?


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28 Sep 2022, 1:06 pm

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Yeah it's a catch 22 situation.

Are there any places where you could offer help as a volunteer. I mean just for something to do. Can you drive?
Yes, but my driving licence has been revoked for health reasons. Most voluntary work needs references which I don't have.


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28 Sep 2022, 1:11 pm

Yeah it's not like the old days when you didn't need references.

So we're in a bit of a pickle then with this.


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28 Sep 2022, 1:19 pm

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Yeah it's not like the old days when you didn't need references.

So we're in a bit of a pickle then with this.
Just done search and Asda have some disability confident jobs:

https://findajob.dwp.gov.uk/search?dc=1&loc=71691&pp=50


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28 Sep 2022, 1:24 pm

That's brilliant news. Are they around your region.


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28 Sep 2022, 1:42 pm

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That's brilliant news. Are they around your region.
Yes, in my town. It depends on the head computer going away and my annoying druggie neighbours shutting the F up at 2am in the morning for me to be able to do it though.


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