Hello, I am new here.
My name is John and I have discovered that I am Autistic/Asperger [high functioning] (based on three separate tests online). I am 58 and just now discovering this. I have been diagnosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder about 10 years ago. My mother is an NPD and my younger brother has ASPD. My research over the past 10 years has made me realize the how and why- of why I have felt the way I have and had the type of experiences I have had. I have a friend of over 40 years that has Aspergers and persuaded me to go take the test (AUTISM spectrum). I have always had some difficulty communicating with others. Mostly people are pissed at me and I don't know why. I am single (have always been single). I am an acoustical engineer. I am a white, heterosexual, Christian, conservative. I only include that last bit for context. I have worked my whole life but after COVID I have found myself unable to get a job. I have about 6 people that I talk to by phone now days. Used to be over 200, but after COVID, politics and culture, I am now a social outcast. Been out of work for four years. This society hates white males with AUTISM over 50. I am looking for others who might be in this category that might share how they got through starting over at 58 with no family or friends to give emotional support. This world has changed and I always felt like an alien on this planet but now I feel ostracized and exiled in ways that I never thought possible here in the United States. I have been able to adapt (because I had no choice) but this is a bit challenging. There is a lot more to this story, but that's enough for now.
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J J Unequivocally All at Sea
Don't believe everything you think.
12 Sep 2024, 1:27 am
