my brain means I'm not compatible with society or friendship

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colliegrace
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06 Dec 2024, 2:10 am

Really think I'm just incompatible with friendships altogether.

Like yeah... I'm "likeable". I'm "quirky". That makes me seem funny or maybe cute. That's what people usually tell me.
....but if you ever get past my walls, you'll change your mind. Trust me. You will.

My social issues include a rampant need to overshare and info dump, and I don't know that it's bothering people until they snap.

And even gentle criticism activates my RSD.

Yeah.... there's no winning here.


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06 Dec 2024, 9:54 pm

Honestly just feel like an awkward failure of a person


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RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)

Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD


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06 Dec 2024, 10:02 pm

Could it be that you're not as bad as you think? Sometimes we are our own worst judges. You seem pleasant here on WP. Just a thought. I know I might be wrong.



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06 Dec 2024, 10:04 pm

Mainly because I hold back my real self and only a handful of people get to know the real me. They never stay, though.

Also.... this is brought on by an RSD episode I'm currently riding out after my friend group had to ask me to stop info dumping in the discord server.


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ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia as well. RSD hurts.
RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)

Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD