It seems like I don't have my family's trust

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My family seems to want to get space from me sometimes. They also don't talk to me about my diagnoses or anything. In fact theyve been looking into respite care without telling me. They are always doing things that involve me but keeping it a secret from me. They sometimes want to talk to my DR and I say yes because they say it's important. They think I'm not being open. I just feel weird about the whole situation. I think I'm old enough and I can talk about my own stuff with them. They always say I'm unreasonable though or don't understand how my diagnoses affect me. I don't really want to talk about it though and they always do.

My family has called the hospital before. Theyve sent me away before. I didn't like it the one time. I threw up a lot and wanted to go home on the 3rd night, they wouldn't let me and I had to have a shower, and then I had to have another one because I had an accident. I resisted to having a shower both times. Then I just had to be separated in another room because I was getting up a lot and wasn't feeling well. I eventually went to sleep after being read to. I felt embarrassed about the whole thing and that's why I never want to spend a night away from home again. I don't sleep good away from home, I will have meltdowns and I will be a bit disruptive. I keep telling my family that.

Yet they don't listen. Also I'm so annoyed that they never let me just be alone in the house at night. They let my siblings each be alone for weeks. Yet I have to be babysat pretty much. It's all because they don't trust me. I got in trouble the last time because I smoked in the house and drank beer I guess. I was legal age. Also I got scared once and thought there were aliens but that's because it was 3 am and I was feeling weird as I hadn't slept. My brother told my parents he was concerned. Now I need supervision when home alone. I guess it's so I'm safe. I just wish my family could trust me.

That all sounds really difficult for you Crystal. It's not very nice when you feel like people don't trust you, especially when you're trying hard to be trusted

It happens to me sometimes but not as extreme as you but I still feel it and sometimes it is so hard to adjust your behaviour and it's more worser when people don't even notice the changes that you're trying to make

I wish you well as always Crystal. Take care love