I Want To Die

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My life is not worth living anymore, I sooooooo hate this group home, they don't care if I have Autism, they can make thing worse for me & I haven't seen my cat for almost 8 months, next month is her birthday & I'm going to miss it. I have NOTHING, I want to die if I continue living here. Nobody in my family offer to really help & let me stay with them, they didn't care, my dad didn't offer to let me live with him. This morning I woke up so depressed, I was crying too. Since my sister won't help me, my other friends won't help me. How can I move out by myself? I wish I know what to do. I can't get apartment I don't have a job, I rather die than live here, I really have nothing to live for. Living here has been the Very Worst experience of my life.

{{{hugs}}}

I’m really sorry you’re struggling so much right now. We’re glad you’re here.

Do you know if you could get into low income housing?

Please try to keep it together if you ....Kitty ... Sometimes I used to daydream about to get enough information together
to figure out bit by bit ways that might help me get independent . Even if I had to try to do public assistance , back in the day. Spend online dreaming of public programs that would help me get ahead, Cause , there was no support in what I was trying to do...So kinda left it up to me . Research, look online for advise or forums how other people did this or that , or where to get applications for programs, And requirements .for them Section 8 housing ,food stamps WIC .
Just so , i sound like I knew what I was talking about, If those chances ever came up.....
But inbetween times just had to take my time and try to hold it together .. Please dont die.

^^ It’s difficult to live with others who don’t understand your autism triggers. Do you have ear plugs that you can use when they are noisy?

As Twilight Princess suggested, there may be other resources available to you at your local social services office. A real social worker in your area can give you assistance. The social workers will understand what you are going through. Alternate housing aid may be needed. If you are using social service assistance already, your social worker can help you with the paperwork. Explain that you need special accommodations for the autism spectrum condition.

You haven’t done anything wrong to feel the way you do. This is a common stressor for many. Take a few deep breaths and step outside for a few minutes when you need to break away from the group chaos. Taking a walk can help reset your physical and mental environment. I walk when I need to get rid of bad energy.

We are here for you on the forum when you need to vent.

Kitty, I’m going to include a few resource links for you below:

988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline

Operating Hours: 24/7
If you or someone you know is experiencing mental health or substance use-related crisis, the Lifeline network is available 24/7.

Call or text 988, or chat at 988lifeline.org.

And the California Department of Social Services:

https://www.cdss.ca.gov/

Love you kitty

Things are MORE WORST, I'm getting another roommate, my bedroom is small, it going to be even smaller, I have alot of physical pain including pain in my legs & ankles, it hard for me to walk. I wish I can move out today. I wish I was dead. I'm problaly going get another mental breakdown.

I'm looking at low income apartments, but I don't know what I'm doing alot of the time, I also have Learning Disabilities, it can make everything so worse for me& make me feel so stupid, I wish I can do things myself. I don't have a job to get an apartment. I wish someone can help me.

Sweet Pea hugs

Are there any other group homes in the area that might be better?