My family thinks I hate them...

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I have an issue with staying over at other peoples houses and I don't like to do it. Members of my family always invite me to stay but I say no because I don't want to.
It's not that I don't like my family because I do...but I just NEED to sleep in my own bed. My mum tells me that my grandmother thinks that I hate her. I don't want her to think that I hate her.

The reason why I don't like to stay at other peoples houses is more because I will wake up in the middle of the night and not know where I am and panic and then have a meltdown which leads to everyone thinking that I am being dramatic.

I don't know how to explain to my family what emotions and feelings go through my head when this happens and thats why it is hard for them to understand why I don't want to stay at others houses.

How should I explain this to them? What should I tell them?

Tell them "I love you and would like to spend more time with you, but I often have panic attacks at night and I don't want to mess up your night's sleep with my problems." ?

I have tried this before but still no one understands which is annoying. I have told them that I dont want to disturb their night and that I am uncomfortable sleeping in other peoples beds but they still dont accept it.

Say: "I'm sorry this bothers you. What else would you like to do?" ?

Ok then I will try this and see how it goes.

After going to bed, I thought of something else. What would happen if you spent the night with a nightlight and a large notebook open to the page that says in jumbo marker: I am at Grandma's house. ?

Would be a good idea. I will try it next time I am invited to stay at someones house.
And today I tried to explain why I did not want to stay but grandma yelled at me and told me to stop making excuses...but it is the truth.

Oh, I'm sorry about your grandma's reaction. She doesn't want to hear it. Don't try to explain it anymore. My mother told me many times one of what I now know to be one of the wisest approaches to life: she told me, "Don't ask anybody for what they're not going to give you."
You're asking for understanding and sympathy, and your grandma isn't going to give it to you. Stop asking for it. I'm not telling you to be bitter and mad at her. Who knows what sort of things she has to struggle with? I find it is best to assume the best. Instead of concluding that your grandma is a vicious b***h, assume that what she yelled at you is something that was yelled at her and that traumatic things happened to her and now she has crippled emotional reactions and that is why she engages in such awful mental manipulations of you. If you can stop wanting her to be someone she isn't, life will likely be easier for you.