I Hate Love

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It's been quite awhile since i've been on the forums. kinda been in denial about my AS, but i need to vent a little, here goes:

I work as a janitor in a grocery store. saturday we were WAY short staffed, out of 3 people scheduled, i was the only one to show up. my manager was able to call in one of the cashiers who is trained in maintenance. (i kinda like her and i thought she kinda liked me) she agreed to come in from 1030 to 7. at 3 she informed me that a 'friend' of hers wanted to go out to dinner with her. being the nice guy that i am i said "sure, why not? just clear it with the manager"
(i really could have used her help til 7 we were busy). yesterday (sunday) she and the friend come in around 6 to say hi to everyone, why you ask? TO SHOW OFF HER BIG HONKING ENGAGEMENT RING!! ! i was ripped, she asked why i did not seem so excited. chocking back a few dozen cuss words, i said "well im just a cynnical person, thats all"

I talked to an aquaintance, he pointed out that i get let down alot. its true, i give up on love. J geils band had it right in that old 80's song: "Love Stinks". everytime i take a liking to a girl she is already taken. they might as well wear a sign that says "Not for you". i have been looking for a g/f fir six damn years and continue to come up empty. everyone i know has a g/f or b/f, some are married already, were all about 19-23. my marching partner at graduation has 2 kids and has been divorced already, shes 21!

Love sucks

(name) and (name) go to hell!

i just noticed something else too, i joined on valentines day 2005.

I love love. Tis a great emotion.

I just can't see myself in a TRUE relationship because of my lack of empathy, understanding, and acceptance.

i feel much like you, thechadmaster. i'm pretty sure i will never date again or be in any kind of relationship again (if i can't manage it at 24, what hope is there at 30? 40?). every single girl i know in this city is either taken or i don't know her status (seriously, no exceptions), so you can imagine how i feel about my dating chances (i know a guy here my age who has been single for over a year despite his social skills being way, way better than mine).
what really annoys me is when a girl dates a jerk she knows is a jerk. i'm far from perfect, but i would offer committment and fidelity to the right girl (not that any has been romantically interested in me for a very long time). it's not even that women avoid me like the plague, it's just that i seem to be as romantically interesting as a brick wall.

Definitely. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong.

Somewhat... I have been with a couple before but - they weren't at all ideal... one was emotionally unstable and didn't know what the hell she wanted, then left... and the other was just a b****. urgh... I'm glad I deleted my 2nd ex from my life after she broke up the relationship and generally did the horrible things she did.

I don't have a GF, therefore I am left out of the dating scene.

whoever coined the term 'nice guys finish last' had it dead on.


thank you all for your support. i am torn between two feelings, i want a g/f for companionship but my social and dating skills are non-existent. On the other hand i have enough to deal with myself let alone hearing about a potential g/f's issues.

to anther issue:
music helps me come big time, after a night like last night i came home and screamed out to my favorite emo/screamo bands. one of them being "A Thorn For Every Heart" that really says it all don't it? the lyrics spoke to me: "every time you breathe i hope you think of me". also Taking Back Sunday's "MakeDamnSure" good emo lovehate lyrics there too "I just wanna bring you down so badly, in the worst way".

Emo help anyone else?
Even know what emo is?
@$#%ing awesome

Love, whatever that might be, is the thorn in my side.

Eh.. I cant really give an answer for the poll on this one..
The only reason why I was lucky enough to start any relationships was because of my looks. I guess I can consider them my girlfriends just to make me feel better lol but it never really lasted long enough to even count (roughly a few days, then they would spend the rest of the week pretending and finally we would break up).
Personally Ive always found underground black metal, dark ambient, and funeral doom good for helping me cope with these situations, and many others. ...Yes I know what emo is....
So yeah, I can relate to your problem here quite well.
I also know a girl who might like you whos from Maine.

I wish I could fall in love but I think anyone would ever let that happen.

On a side note, please don't listen to emo. It's nothing but sh***y high-school poetry put to powerchords in 4/4 time. Listen to old blues records if you want to hear real emotional lyrics about that sort of thing. Emo is a commercialized money-farm run by pathetic untalented guys who make millions off your sadness by pretending to be sad themselves. You think those guys in Taking Back Sunday are really depressed? They make tons of money and they can have any girl they want. They have nothing to be sad about. They write the same lyrics over and over again so people like you will listen to their banal mung. They're just taking advantage of you to make profit and to be honest it disgusts me. Please don't ever listen to emo again, and if you do don't talk about it in front of me in a positive way. Trust me, I'm a music major.

I dont see myself with someone...I dont think I could do it...
people just...I mean I have friends-ish
but they're a couple-an NT couple...(one knows about AS) but...
I mean my family keeps moving-better and better houses but I can never hold down a friend or a school for more then a year
I stopped trying after 10th grade

Okay lets not start a music flame war. some of us like emo others don't. we all cope differently, lets not bash each other, i know emo can be a touchy subject but if we all get along, things will go much more smoothly for us all

Same.

i'll never let myself get close to anything or anyone ever again. it hurts too much.