I'm in a crisis

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I feel so sorry to everyone here. I have been going through a really tough time. I am back at my old job and we have a really ignorent boss. He is making me so unbelievebly stressed I am seriously thinking of quiting. Also I've been having some problems related to Asperger's. I feel like everything I knew about AS is know false. In fact I feel like everything in my life is now false. I just feel like I am in a dark hole with no bottom.

The problem is in my rigid thinking. I have been told by some people that when diagnosing people with asperger's If the person had a delay in language as a baby that They are autistic. But I also was told by one od the top pscychologist in the field DR Tony Atwood that that does not matter. I always thought that we had to be a little professor, And talk right from the start, like I did.

I feel like everything I thought I knew about this problem that I have called AS, is know false and it is making me sick to my stomach. I feel like theirs no hope for me.

I don't think I'm explaning it very well. But I am in a crisis!

I hope you start to feel better soon.

After seeing Donna Williams Speak in Brighton a couple of months ago, it became clear to me why she called her talk "Autism as a Fruit Salad"
Simply Autism effects people in many ways, and as we get older and the way we adapt to things changes, including how we respond to people, places and things, we will all continue to see ourselves in a different light.

It can be overwhelming for me at times, to observe my particular 'Fruit Salad'.

I do hope I have not given you indigestion.

Travel gently
Chris

You dont have to meet every single criteria established for AS or HFA, but you do have to meet certin ones and a coupld different criteria but generally HFA and AS are seperated by delay in speech and probably IQ. I dont know a ton myself about it and always assumed AS and HFA are the same, but the differences are suttle.

I was DX'ed with HFA years b4 AS was established in the DSM. AS a result I feel I could have been miss diagnosed. Close enough tho... My speech, tho it may have come slightly later then others, i dont think was too significant. I function as a productive member of society, live independently, and beleive myself to be gifted as far as intelligence, tho I never took an IQ test, I also never really studied for tests in collage and high school (tho maby i should have for english, heh... spelling and punctuation, grammer) and was on the deans list every semester of collage. I dont think never getting re-DX'ed is something ill do anytime soon, I know if I do they will change it from HFA (childhood dx) to AS.

I dont know if this is part of your "discomfort" but I think the shifting information about autism and AS can be very confussing for a group of people who generally like "facts".Right now they are in theory mode,about AS and cant even seem to agree with each other(the experts).Trying to get a firm grasp on something that keeps "shape-shifting" is like trying to walk on a floor of Jello,little hard to keep from sinking.

Inspite of having a DX,I still go back and forth on what to believe about what "AS" actually is for me.It's actually not much different then what I have always felt about "reality".....Ever heard of the book,"Nausia"...I think the author describes this quit well(also think he was an aspie ).Like most of the "science" behind the human "brain/personality/cognition",there are so many factors that go into making each individual who they are that pinning down hard scientific information is difficult if not impossible.

So I dont have a "solution" but I recommend Peptobismol and thinking about it as little as possible....(ha,yeah,that should be easy enough .)

That is why all things about people, single or in groups, are called "Soft Sciences."

It does make a mess of fact based thinking.

Anthropology is re-written every decade. Our opinion of history changes, so the present has much less basis.

Back to being a culture of one. All that counts is what works for you.

A few words, lines drawn in the air, you are same.

I disagree with the new version, just as I did with the old.

They are not living it, just selling books.