fresco wrote:
This is driving me mad!! I am so restless. I have a crush on someone I had a fling with weeks ago, who has no interest in me he was drunk. I don't really fancy him its just I cannot forget his face it was like a sculpture, Scandinavian, big eyes so I have like a visual obsession. I can't stop looking at his facebook profile and to top it off I can't stop thinking about his ex girlfriend. I need to know all about her. Is she attractive, what does she wear, eat god I am so pathetic. I avoid romance at all costs because this always happens. I fixate on details and get repetitive thoughts. Feeling attraction is just unpleasant for me it just translates as anxiety. The ex-girlfriend knows he had a fling with me, and finds it amusing which is a little un-nerving, she must think I am some kind of joke.
I totally understand how you feel. I've learned to not react that way to someone I find that attractive, cause I'll usually then say something to them that I'll regret later. Like, something realllyyy embarrassing. I also kind of think it's immature to go boy-crazy over someone, but that's more my perspective of what I should leave behind from being a teenager.
It's not like I'm saying you're immature, it's just I found it to be too much stress to be obessessed with someone I usually can't have. This coming from an experience with liking affeminate guys, who usually are gay. And obsessing over celebrities I'll probaly never meet, which right now is Criss Angel. So I figure it's futile spending so much energy being concerned over what most likely will never be. Although in Japan it seems it's not that weird for women to like really affeminate looking guys. So at least there's comfort in knowing I wouldn't be considered having weird taste in men there. Except that I can't learn Japanese for anything, meh.
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07 Oct 2007, 5:11 pm
