thank you folks I am doing better now

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Flakey and I are not breaking up.
Everything is more-or-less ok.
Still can't eat..
but don't want to leave SHFL or the cats...or all the other stuff or even Flakey...

Maybe it's dumb of me...but I have an amazing capacity to kinda block stuff out sometimes....and that is what I am doing.

It is ironic the things I can and cannot block out.

Will just funnel all negative energy into ukulele...and try to be sewing monkeys again

I am glad you feel better! WP does cheer me up too sometimes. I promise, I've had some desperately nightmarish times too.......

If you ever need to talk feel free...

I blocked things out for years...probably still would be doing so if the tide didn't turn the way it did...so I understand, and no it's not dumb.


I wanna see the sock monkeys though...I think they're awesome.

{{Hugs}}

I just hope it isn't the eye of the storm.
I feel nothing tonight...just nothing...I am just a compulsive ukulele playing robot.

I hope that Flakey does not use that to take advantage of me.

He was acting so messed up over everything this morning that I really did feel like everything was somehow my fault...because i feel so blank...

um...i guess it is better than the alternative.

Numb. Strange how that sets in...it's like a self-preservation thing with me. I don't know how to describe it..it's welcome in a way at times...helps me carry on.

Just keep those eyes open okay? I'm hoping things go okay for you too.

Just one last thing though....this wasn't your fault...don't believe into that.

I'm not saying point the finger of blame at anyone... just...don't blame yourself. I did...for too many years.

Did he say that he won't cheat on you anymore?

(If not: I can think of something that you could make a sock-monkey out of.)

i call him "Flakey" for a reason.

umm...it's "complicated"...cannot quite articulate at the moment.......

Just be careful.. We do care about your happiness and well-being. Dont let him make you miserable. You have a right to be happy.