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'Kay. I just have to vent, and I think I'd better do it here.

If you get tired of seeing this idiocy, it can be deleted.

I've been feeling really depressed. I can't say what's going on, but it's got me really really down. I feel like I'm an idiot and can't help anyone and everything that I try to do right leads me to a dead end. I feel so useless. I feel like I need to help out but can't. I feel like a pile of wet, maggot infested leaves. That's how I view myself right now.

It's not like I want to die, but if things get too far, I might feel that way.

Usually, I just eat mangoes or grapes and I get really happy. But this time, it's just not helping. I really don't want to feel like this. I know that it's wrong to be so depressed, but I don't know how to stop feeling this way.

I really just need to save myself.

'Cause it's unlikely that anyone can save me anymore.

There would be a way, I'm not saying it's impossible, but it's just going to be really hard. And unlikely.

I just need to let go of my emotions or something. They're holding me down.

That, and if there was a scale of -2- to 20 on 'understanding life', I used to be on a 3 (About a year ago or something). A couple days ago, I was -15. Today, I'm -35.

Sorry for acting like an idiot and ranting in your faces.

Please have a better day than me.

'Cause I'm a worthless idiot.

(hugs Nairin)

Tim

The part of you I sdee is not a worthless idiot. Why? Because I say so.


I support you in helping yourself. You still felt like people would be able to help you a least emotionally, which is why you posted this. If you ever want to talk-- about anything-- you can PM me.

Sorry you're in such a bad place; I've been there and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Is there something that triggered you into feeling this way?

If you stretch your arm forward, you will be able to tap my shoulder because I am just a few steps ahead of you coming back from the depths of hell.

This is for you:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTV1pTYhsKs[/youtube]


I haven't learn to set the music yet, it will come. (but has you noticed the little warm hug at the beginning?)

*hugs everyone*

Well, that was a complete lie. (And I don't lie)

Because someone did save me.

I'm not depressed anymore.

Sorry that it seems like I'm totally avoiding what caused the depression and what's causing the okay-ness now. But it would take way too long to explain and I would bore/confuse you to tears. And I don't like making people cry.

Thank you all for talking to me when I was depressed. I just expected people to read it and walk away when I started writing, because I just felt like venting.

WrongPlanet people = Awesome.

Have a nice day.

Now that the clouds have lifted, I feel myself allow to tease you a bit,

I don't know what your books say, but in mine unlikely has a completely different meaning to impossible.


But of course you end up getting right the most important point





You see, you didn't lie

Glad that you are better now

I am happy because people like you exist.

Btw, I know exactly what you mean by feeling like a wet soggy pile of leaves... absolutely worthles in all respects. I've felt like a corpse before. A corpse with no blood, and the brains cut out. I feel better now and I'm glad you do too!