Looking to the future is a bad idea

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Every time I think about the future, I see myself working, and then going home to my apartment. And then after that I'll read or something. And then that'll be my life.
These days life is dull and unpleasant. Not even depressed, just always slightly unhappy, and so rarely happy. I've been more prone to anger as of late. So I try to channel it into working out. That's good.
When I get to school after my first class, I just want to leave. I'm just restless and angry for no reason and then my next class is band. Now I'm never in the mood to play what the band plays and the band sucks anyway so I just get more depressed. And then by third period I'm just kinda dull, and sometimes gym is a little fun. There you go, highlight of my day, and that's only if it's something I like that day.
I just feel like, that's life, when will it ever be anything worth while?
I try not to think about it, I just focus on learning guitar and exercising or something.
Bleh

I feel the same way
my future seems so dull and-I dont want it you know
I dont want a job and a crappy apt...
all the junk I have
the crappy hobbies
its all junk that makes me sick on the inside

Do you feel like this all the time, or just some days, or only recently...?

I know how you feel. It's hard because I don't know what life is supposed to be, but the older I get, the more I realize that life is exactly what it is now, and sometimes the now isn't very exciting...

I know everyone probably says this, but it sounds like you need an attitude adjustment. You can't always control your environment, but you can control how you respond to it. I just try to notice the small details that make life good (even just a good cup of tea or whatever, haha). Sometimes I have to fake it, but the more I fake it, the more real it becomes, if that makes sense.

I think anger and unhappiness can feed on themselves and grow worse and worse, so it's good you can channel it into working out. But yeah, I can relate. I've just learned not to think about it, because I prefer being happy about any little thing I can get...

On the contrary, I think that looking to the future can be a good idea.

We shape our own futures, no one can take that away.

Looking to the future is all that keeps me alive sometimes.

All you touch and all you see, is all your life will ever be
I usually feel like this, and it's been that way for a while.
I'm kinda getting over this whole drama, but that's another story. It helped trigger depression. But the real source is self pity, sadness and anger that feeds off of itself. Despairing because I feel I'm doomed to die alone.
I used to be very optimistic, enjoying every moment of life, and taking interest in everything.
Now it's just become just dull and meaningless. But that's not the way to look at it.
Right now I have excelent music playing. So I'll try and enjoy it the best I can...
I dunno, I just don't feel any energy. Could be because I'm tired, which is lame because I get a pretty good amount of sleep.
Why am I always tired? And why can I never sleep when I want to? My eyes burn, so I close them and they bother me more. I wish my damned eyes would stop hurting. My fault for video game binging.
A few people have told me that there comes a time in life somewhere between 13 and 18 when everything seems really pointless and you just don't care, and your only reason for keeping up is there's no reason not to. No one has told me to adjust my attitude. I don't make a point of showing my darker side, but I have people in my life I can talk to.
I have a lot to be thankful for you know, doesn't make me any less unhappy.
"Well, some people would kill to have everything you have"
Yeah reminds me of the millions of starving people and such and sends me into a downward spiral, remembering everything I hate about this world. Helps a lot.
So I channel my energy into my bike as I ride around town.