absolutely brain dead.

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Can't think, can't talk properly, can't comprehend as used to, headaches getting too regular, not so amused and cheerful as used to, can't be bothered to behave 'socially acceptable', can't be bothered if misunderstandings arises, can't be bothered to mend relationships with people, can't be bothered about my studies, too much worrying on who's doing better, too much despair that i'm worthless etc etc, too much lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling thinking basically nothing, too much daydreaming, excessive desire to sleep 24/7, no longer cares about the future, way too much wanderings in streets, now preferring to be alone, now so very aware of the seconds ticking away but can't do anything, now unnecessarily hating in a screaming way to loud noises and bad weather and bad lighting and every possible tiny things, no more of that daring competitive element so well known to others, no more desire to aim higher than anyone else or even put effort trying to think as 'original' as used to...

What the hell is wrong with me? Because despite of this don't-carish attitude i do actually care about it and i hate it and i want it to stop. But nothing is helping me at the moment. Cute? Hell no.

I know alot of people may not like to respond to posts like these...but to be perfectly honest....it sounds like you are suffering from depression.

I've suffered from depression for most of my life (including when I was a child).

There is no sense at all in suffering when you can get help. Some people only need help (medications) until they have climbed out of the hole, other people need it for longer...or perhaps even long term. That is for you and a doctor to decide.

Don't let an aversion to the idea deter you from improving your quality of life.

Good Luck.

no i don't mind anyone replying although i wrote that post almost to myself really lol.

i thought my depressions were over. i mean, i was definitely worse. then i dunno, i kinda got washed away by this sudden inner peace and it made me feel clam - momentarily. then i became aware that i'm not myself at all and that just drives me mad. i don't feel suicidal, but, well...i just feel useless.

Everything you said is on a checklist for depression. Meds helped me. They might help you. Check it out as soon as you can. I wish you well.

Yes,this sounds like my depressions but I am also thinking of it in a more AS related possibility....



I often feel like this when I am between "special interests"...until another one "hits" me I feel lost and apathetic.


Overwhelmed and stressed...some times when I have taken on to much,spent to much time trying to live like I am NT...my computer overloads and I withdraw into myself...like the computer froze from asking it to preform to many tasks beyond it's capacity...this leads me to feeling numb and sort of dead?


Whatever the "trigger",I do find that anti-depressants can help kick start my system.

All the rest aside, sometimes we do feel like that, teens more than others.

Lots of change going on, in you and around you, hard to keep up with.

If you push to make one thing right, school work, it can help.

Hope you feel better.

so this is called a depression. right. i guess i am abit overwhelmed after all. i wish i can stop trying to be 'normal' -_-

as i want to avoid the shrink as much as possible, i'll get some anti-depressants then. i wonder if boots sell them. and...i dunno, i've messed up so many things i'm thinking to leave college. i just hope my parents will understand.

thanks guys *hugs all* :)

And hugs back. Pills might help some while seeking the cause, but the cause is what needs to be explored.

When things get messed up, it is depressing, but that is not clinical depression, that is life.

You can never be normal, because no one is. Faults and flaws make up humans, so do not judge yourself by such a strong standard, cut the girl some slack.

I know a lot about the problems caused by the drive for perfection, it is an unreachable goal.

If I was perfect, I would have to be better the next day, so I can never win.

In this world 75% is passing, so just get by, and save the rest for yourself.

A few things get my best effort, but most of life, just give me a passing grade.

The time to seek understanding from parents is before it all falls apart.

They have kept you this long, they might like you.

Shrinks do not care, do not know you, and have no thought of your future.

Deal with the people who do.

I feel the same way as you do. It happens tome too. If anyone is pressuring you, whether they know they are or not, whether they claim they are or not, try to get away from them. A lot of people are pressured by others and don't even know it.


Yes, I think Darling should have some antidepressants and try to find out what else is going on.

try cognitive behavioral therapy. Its been shown to be just as effective as medication and there is no side effects no nasty withdrawal and you are much less likely to relapse.

Those are the ways that I've felt, in 1998 before I was diagnosed with Depression. I was thankfully put on the right combination of meds, for my body, and I've been doing fine, for 10 years.