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having a bad evening so far. i have my last exam tomorrow so hopefully i will feel a lot better then. there are too many people in my house so i am hiding in my room from them.

i made tea for people that live here tonight but i just recieved complaints that i had not put salt in the mash potato (i hate salt). my friend that i live with is feeling a bit down at the moment & i feel i should be nice to her more but am finding it difficult & when she complained about the mash i told her she should have just done it herself which probably was not the right thing to do.

then all the other people came back so i left to go to my room & ended up smacking my head (which i know is not the right thing to do but when i feel bad it is what i do) swearing at myself & ended up giving myself a minor panic attack. when i was younger i had big panic attacks but have not had any for a few years but have had 2 small ones this week so am worried they are now coming back.

why cant everyone just leave me alone? nyah. i want to live on my own in the middle of nowhere with just dogs & horses for company but whilst i am at uni this is not possible.

hopefully it will all be better tomorrow

thank you for allowing me to rant, i needed it

Stress, and nothing else.

I second living with dogs and horses.

Hope you'll feel better after the exams.

The panic attacks are caused by stress and stress only. I had the same thing when I had my exams, was almost crying myself to sleep and having nightmares. But I got over it and felt a big releif when I was finished.
Try holding on, will get better.