What is happening to me? Please respond!

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I am getting weird thoughts again. My thoughts change over time. My main problem has been thought insertion. Not voices because they are not audible. I am thankful for that. Just very powerful thoughts from an outside source. This time it isn't the aliens. They went away and I am happy for that. I started getting thought insertion over the last 2 days and it scares me. I think I am in a period of more stress because my mom and brother are going in for surgery on February 8th. It is the lap band surgery. Because of that I think that something bad is going to happen to them, especially mom because during the last few surgeries, she almost died. My brother has never had a real surgery before other than taking his tonsils out. My thoughts are getting weird again but I still think I am normal, just a little stressed out. The thought insertion is telling me that I killed a lot of people across the country. The family members of the apparent crime is threatening revenge. Also on top of that, the FBI and CIA is after me (but they are after everyone on the planet) for doing the imaginary crime. See, I don't believe the thoughts of me killing people. How can I travel throughout the country anyways, I can't drive or anything like that and have been around people the whole time. So I think they are accusing the wrong person. The government has been after me forever anyways and I am used to that. They tell me there are hidden cameras everywhere I go including the car, my house, and other places. They also have a tracking device inside of me and it gives my location and even my thoughts to the FBI and CIA. If I have an "evil" thought then they might think that is evidence against me. I didn't do anything wrong. I never committed any crime. I don't know what to do. What do I do about this? I take meds already. All they do is take away the hallucinations that I had a few years ago and they also help with my speech problems. Sometimes I get disorganized but I am not like that now, obviously. The other thing the lovely pills have done is make me gain 80 pounds in the past year or so. I rather be severely psychotic than morbidly obese. If you had a choice of being crazy or being fat, which one would you choose? I am on a very low dose of Geodon (that is NOT the one that is putting on all the weight, it is the pills from the past. I have been on almost every psych pill on the planet!) so on Monday when I see my psychiatrist again I will ask him to raise it and explain about the anxiety. So, is this just anxiety that is causing this? Or is it more serious like psychosis? I don't think it is a delusion so I don't think it is actual psychosis. Just remember I am sane. So, please help! I know you all are tired of my unusual thoughts. I am tired of them but they come to me for some odd reason. So, that is all I can think of at this moment.

So it was aliens at a previous time? I What do you mean by "coming from an outside source"? Well it sounds like it could be some sort of psychosis, because you have a history. However, it may not be. My mind works in strange paranoid ways sometimes.
The thing about thinking you killed people...I can sort of relate to that, but I'm not comfortable sharing the way I can relate.

At a previous time I believed aliens were after me and implanted a device in my non existent brain. I don't think that anymore. What do I mean by an outside source? I think the thoughts are NOT mine but somehow inserted in my head from someone else. I would never think these weird thoughts if it was just me. That is why I have the thought insertion which is the most annoying thing on this planet.

I hate to be a conspiracy theorist, but there are plenty of articles out there and some actual true court cases of the govt/govts testing war radio type devices on people. Thought insertian.

I say, move away from that crap town to a suburb of a big city-as soon as you can.

Fight the voices. And don't do any thing they say.
Also-stop acknowleding that you are hearing them.
Or maybe even ask them to stop.

sounds like you have more on your plate than you can deal with. It's not as bad is it seems, a lot of the things you put down here can be proved logically false. You'd have to have a brain, for instance.

This sounds like something a professional should look at; it's way beyond me (not that I'm a professional anything... but you need to talk to someone who can help.

Your strange thoughts are all that I have thought and think now and again, it gets a bit distressing the more intense they are. I reckon quite a lot more people experience these type of thoughts than will admit to. On the positive side having the CIA and aliens after you takes beats the drudgery of real life. If it gets too intense fight against it. Having thoughts of the worst possible thing happening to two family members facing hospital and surgery is normal, I've done it myself with one more recently, talk about if you need to, release some of the fear.

Sea Bright, I am not moving from where I am. I live with my family and I don't want them to suffer because of what I'm going through. The town I live in is very small, there are more cows than human beings. The population is less than 3,000 humans and more than 500,000 cows. Second of all, I don't hear the thoughts. It is not audible as in voices. I am thankful for that. I do tell them to stop. They haven't yet.