ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

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I can't take all the stress anymore. I try so hard to be a good little girl and I go to work and dancing and I be social but I can't anymore, just going to work sends my stress levels haywire, I can't even go outside of the house anymore without getting frustrated Kevin-John is the only one who seems to notice I even get stressed socializing online. I love entertaining people and I like seeing people happy but the stress is starting to affect my health, I don't like being around people, maybe two to four hours a week I could live but 8 hours 4 days a week then 6 hours Friday for work then 2 hours Monday and Wednesday dancing plus other things is frustrating me.

Kevin-John understands though, I guess, he wants me to tell the psychologist all of this but I'm too scared to, even going to the psychologist is stressful I went out of the house today (I'm off work due to illness) and I got so stressed that I threw everything I bought against the wall. Kevin-John says he's going to take care of me though and let me stay in the house while he works and that I'll make a little home for him but that's not fair on him, especially if we have children.

At school I had the option of hiding, cutting classes to be alone, sitting away from everyone else, or wagging school altogether now I can't and I don't like it it's stressing me out I wish it didn't because I love my co-workers and my family and the people at dancing but ENOUGH IS ENOUGH PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE ! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Take a sick day. Its inportant for you to get some time to regain your wits. Just make a time where you can disappear for a while. It will make a world of difference.

Done that. I've been having sick days for the past 12 months, and it doesn't make any difference. I still go back and the moment any social interaction occurs my stress sky rockets.

Who is Kevin-John?

My boyfriend/best friend/confidant/fellow Aspie. We've been going out now for 10 and a half months now.

*sigh* This whole mess confuses and frustrates him as much as it does me.

Lay your troubles on your man, that is what they are for.

He said that too LOL.

I'm going now before I overload again.

*wave*

edit: bah

do take a sick day. my mom used to let me skip school on days i just felt like staying home. it helped. glad u have a good bf(f)

In the one relationship drama I experienced, I felt amazing when I was able to be there for my girl.

Me back. No violent outburst this time.

And just so everyone knows, if I take too many sick days then I'll get fired.

Although Ray (the boss, the best boss ever, he is the most diplomatic and fair person I know) has a son with aspergers (that's how I found out) and maybe if I did speak to the psychologist we could figure something out.....................................

Thanks guys. I'll chat over it with Kevin-John tonight when he comes over.

You guys are full of good ideas.

Sounds like you're taking a bit too much on. Maybe slow down a little - you've got the rest of your life to do all that stuff.

you could also try some sensory relaxation techniques.


a tub of hot (or warm) water in total quiet

soothing music

aromatherapy

a soothing drink (not alcohol. I mean like warm milk or your favorite fruit juice)

you can do the above with him if you wish (it helps build up tolerance for prolonged contact)

and you could also have him give you a massage if that helps you relax.

Well, on Friday I severely melted down. Rocking, hand flapping, crying, screaming. My mum was at work and I screamed at her not to touch me. I felt better afterwards, but I was still very shaky.

On Saturday Kevin-John came to the psycho with me. According to George (my psycho), I was very quiet compared to my usual "Blah blah blah blah" (Usually you can't shut me up. LOL, I'm either very loud or very silent silly me), and Kevin-John agreed. Kevin-John is now going to start coming with me to my appointments, which I guess is a good thing because I am very comfortable with Kevin-John. I owe him a lot. Sometimes I wish I could be more like him.

On Sunday Kevin-John took me to the Bunya Mountains. On the way we hit a poor bird that got confused. So we took the poor thing (who took three huge poops in my bag and would not be quiet the whole way there) to the National Ranger, who told us that only his leg was badly injured, and that he'd be just fine. Whew. So Kevin-John and I went walking through the rainforest, which is really refreshing. It rained on us and we found it funny.

Today is Monday and I am on night-shift, which is good cos that way I only work with one other person all week. And Mr. Ian at work is very understanding and is always looking out for me.

I won't meltdown this week I know that. But I feel like next week is gonna be a different story. Just working with one other person is stressing me out.

I feel like I'm going backwards.

And now I'm feeling ignored.