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RokhardDC
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24 Feb 2008, 9:31 pm

Things have been rough for a few weeks...Really...REALLY rough.

For like the bajillionth time in my life things have gone worse,slightly better, then worse again.

I just can't stand thinking of it as an irreputable cycle of my own demise.

Of course there's always one way to break a cycle...and I've tried a few times lately..My arms burning still right now..

I haven't seen my psychiatrist for nearly 2 months...

But when I do see her..well....If I tell her whats happened lately she is 100% garunteed to prescribe medication..and lots of it...The problem is...If I get that medication..Im a further 90% sure I'll try to overdose at some point during one of my major depressive states...

So Im either going to kill myself before March...Or see her and probably kill myself then anyway...hm..

The joys of life eh?

I need serious help..but all my friends are too scared to help much because "Your mind is so fragile I don't want to give wrong advice and destroy you" *sigh*...

and please don't tell me that things will get better..I've waited the last 8 years for that to happen and it just won't.



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24 Feb 2008, 9:41 pm

What's happening?


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24 Feb 2008, 9:59 pm

RokhardDC wrote:
Things have been rough for a few weeks...Really...REALLY rough.

For like the bajillionth time in my life things have gone worse,slightly better, then worse again.

I just can't stand thinking of it as an irreputable cycle of my own demise.

Of course there's always one way to break a cycle...and I've tried a few times lately..My arms burning still right now..

I haven't seen my psychiatrist for nearly 2 months...

But when I do see her..well....If I tell her whats happened lately she is 100% garunteed to prescribe medication..and lots of it...The problem is...If I get that medication..Im a further 90% sure I'll try to overdose at some point during one of my major depressive states...

So Im either going to kill myself before March...Or see her and probably kill myself then anyway...hm..

The joys of life eh?

I need serious help..but all my friends are too scared to help much because "Your mind is so fragile I don't want to give wrong advice and destroy you" *sigh*...

and please don't tell me that things will get better..I've waited the last 8 years for that to happen and it just won't.


well, looks like you have it all planned out.

having been there, myself, I can tell you that things will change, and change again and all your planning will be changed too.

try not to do anything stupid before you see your psych again, though.

and post here, at least we can distract you . . .

Merle



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26 Feb 2008, 1:47 pm

MysteryFan3 wrote:
What's happening?


Im having major mood swings of depression all the time, my schoolwork has been dropping majorly as a result, teacher's shout at me nearly everyday for the falling work, then I feel lower because of it...Repeat..Im also losing a lot of friends lately because everybody seems to be changing.



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26 Feb 2008, 8:53 pm

Tell your psychiatrist that you think you may overdose on your medication...thats if she prescribes any to you. If you say that, she probably wont give it to you.
But then I wonder, if you say that, she may threaten to hospitalize you. 8O

I wont say that things will get better...but I will say that sometimes, you just have to keep going through the bad times to survive.


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