I found my old report cards and other such things over the years. Which is quite a boon, at this time I'm trying to get a sense of identity... and went though testing to figure out what is up in my upper parts.
In 6th grade, the grade I had the most trouble in, all the reports blamed my problems on a speech impediment I have. I repeated myself often. It seems kind of silly to me, all these interconnected problems I was having... and it can all be summed up because I can't say 's' 'sch' 'ch' sounds?
Gah, I also read that I stopped speech therapy... because my Mom put the decision on me. So if this was a problem, it never was really resolved... I don't have much actual speech problems now. But I do speak softly, and don't express myself.
It's frustrating to think that everyone put the weight of all the bullying, bad grades, behavior issues... on this one minor problem.
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Wonder what it feels like to be in love?
How would you describe it, like a push or shove?
Guess I could pretend that this is all I need
Wanting more than what I have might appear as greed.