Who is feeling suicidal?

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I've never been serious about committing suicide, or at the brink of seriously contemplating the option of doing it, but I often find myself fantasizing about the afterlife. The problem is, as soon as I get too carried away by my fantasies, the rational part of my brain kicks in and reminds me that after death I cease to exist and there is no 'me' anymore. That is, no feelings of tranquility and absolutely nothing after death. Rationality dictates that death is going back to the way it was before birth: nothingness. Since I still can't come up with a reason why nothingness is better than somethingness, and since I don't plan to delude myself with some religion that promises life after death, I plan to remain alive and hopefully well until I die of a disease, an accident, murder or old age.

Does anyone identify?

ooh.

that sounds very normal MW.

quite a sound plan.

i only ever considered it once, when i was about 13. i rejected the idea then and with rigid thinking 'n'all, i've never changed my mind!

If i ever do take myself out... I am leaving a big mess for people to clean up jk

I think the Haven is more approriate for this sort of thread, thank you.

I'm on the verge of feeling suicidal. I'm so sick and tired of the way my life is right now...

Kind of. Not badly.

Sometimes anything is better than the day to day drudgery of somethingness. Even if it's nothing. I picture nothingness as a big black hole where I won't have to experience anything again.

I haven't, for a while.

I actually posted on a suicide prevention site before finding WP. I realized I belong here because whenever it comes up here, it's discussed rationally and logically, the way I've always thought about it on occasion, something the users of the prevention site seemed incapable of.

It's just another passing fixation for me. Haven't fantasized about it in several months.

I figure even if I might reincarnate into a life where I could be happier and accomplish more, there must be a lot of stuff that I'm in unique position to do in this life, so I procrastinate actual attempts like anything else. So what if I never so much as kiss a woman in this life? If I did get a second go around, I'd probably be some as*hole who gets laid all the time, but can't experience any of the intellectual joys I know in this one.

And if I ever do off myself, I too will make the biggest mess possible on all levels. I've mentioned my "wedding day" fantasy on other threads, and the point of that is to set the bar high enough in the mess category that I never actually off myself unless I really, really want it. I am a perfectionist after all.

I have not thought about this since high school in the beginning and middle part of it. It has been a good almost a decade, not quite since I thought about it when I realized tho I may never come close to what my parents had in life I can still be happy, do some good and make a modest living.

Anyways its good to think logially about these things. I dont beleive the afterlife is nothingness, I beleive you are rewarded or punished depending on how you lived you life, but thats just me. I do not wanna off myself and experience the hell of the afterlife when I can be a good person, maby even do something great like adopt another ASD child and give them a good home, childhood and future they otherwise would not have had, and I cant imagine offing myself and not experiencing this. If I do good I will be rewarded in heaven. Or I may roam the Earth for eternity as a ghost, heh. I suppose their is many thoughts about what happens when we die, you can have faith and beleive what will happen, but in the end we will all find out eventually.

I am, because I am hopelessly waiting for a woman I am fixated on to decide if she's going to get a job that isn't too terribly far from me. She said she couldn't do a long-distance relationship, and if she gets a job far away from me, then a relationship will not be possible, and I will never be happy again if that is the case.

Years ago, I couldn't understand why people would want to kill themselves. Now I know that the answer is so simple. If anyone wants to talk you can PM me anytime about anything.

It only vaguely crosses my mind from time to time. I worry about my future...eventually ending up ugly and alone and crazy and a burden to society....I don't know how long I could handle living like that.
That is why I recently started taking St. John's Wort......(been kinda sorta deepressed lately)

I've never felt that I wanted to end my life, even at my lowest. Actually to kill myself sort of takes too much effort, it's much easier to just fade away and become homeless... at least I can still exist with my thoughts... which I would enjoy.

At my lowest, down and out feeling... I was driving my car and I nearly felt that I would just drive into a ditch and then be found by the police or something. I didn't want to kill myself, but I didn't want to do anything to survive either.

It got to the point to where thoughts of suicide would absolutely dominate my dreams and thoughts, to where I couldn't think about anything else. But because of fears of attempting and failing, I would never actually take it up. I mean I always thought about downing 23858902379062903723 painkillers but I was told it'd just rip a hole in my stomach and I'd just be in alot of pain and probably survive.

I mean overall I got on the right meds and all that is history...

I feel suicidal constantly, been feeling so since quite little. It varies from less to more 'severe', but the thoughts are always there. Often it is hard to imagine a life without thinking of killing yourself, or in general pondering on this kind of things.