Reality has gone. Gone.

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Its coming back again...Its coming back and I don't have the energy to fight it. I've lost reality.

When I walked from my study room to my bedroom, I nearly had a heart attack when I could hear footsteps and whispering (nobody else was in the house at the time), and a shadow dashed across the corridor. I am scared of the people hidden in my room and the people in my head. I found myself talking to them today. I have music on right now, trying to drown out the noises and whispering I keep hearing, but its not working. I'm on olanzapine 10mg, but its not working. I don't understand why all these medications I'm trying aren't working any more. There are people behind me with guns, ready to shoot me. The people in my head are watching every move that I make, every word that I type. I am scared. My music sounds distorted, like someone's messed about with my speakers. OH MY GOD. I am terrified.

Reality no longer exists. I'm back in Imaginary World again. I'm back on the acid-trip-without-taking-acid again.

its called tolerance, when you have been taking a psychotropic for a while your brain builds up neuroadaptations. once the the amount of nuero adapatations equals the medication dosage you go into tolerance withdrawal.

Talking to voices is the worst thing you can do. it only enhances their realism. try saying a prayer instead. I know from experience saying the prayer to saint micheal puts a real damper on voices.

Have you been eating wheat products by any chance? It s called the gluten casien alllergy and it known to cause people to hear voices and such.

You will be surprised to hear this, but b vitamins especially b6 and b3 , in really high dosages are anti-psychotic. what they do is increase the effeciancy of nuerotransmission and elimate psychotic thougts and boost mood. im not however suggesting you try doing this your self

If medication is not working anymore, you have to look esle where. try looking up a naturopath in your area. im seeing one for depression. they really tune up the brain.

BOH!! !
those hallucinations are creeping me out!! I hope you can indeed get over it!

and BOH!! !
you seem to be quite knowledgable about brain stuff!!

I'm feeling a little calmer now, but I've tried four different drugs and they don't work. The thing is, is that if I do end up getting ill, it could ruin my life. I have my A-levels coming up. When I get ill, I get really ill. I get ill in terms of police searching for me over London/being sectioned/being sent to a secure ward/etc. So I'm pretty scared now. I don't think that natural cures will help me, unless there is something in my diet, like the gluten, that is affecting my brain that I should stop eating. My hyperkinetic disorder was dietary, could this be too? I could try cutting gluten out of my diet.
What foods contain gluten? I know little about gluten.
I'll try the vitamins.

SteelMaiden,
medications can also cause hearing to distort,eg,music might sound like it's slowing and speeding up,low pitch to high pitch etc.
it's one of the side effects am had with normal tegretol some years ago,had to swap as got too many side effects with that one.

But I'm on antipsychotics for schizophrenia. These meds are supposed to stop that sort of stuff.

I hope things improve with you soon!

Use the Search option at the top of the page and look for "gluten free". There are a LOT of threads in WP dealing with this. I agree with nightbender that you have likely become tolerant of the current meds and need something else. People who benefit from a gluten free/casein free diet report clearer thinking, fewer meltdowns and more energy, but it can take a few months for the effects to be felt. Meanwhile, if the vitamins don't work soon enough you may need to talk to your doctor for new meds until the holistic methods have a chance to take effect.

I hope you find a natural means to relief soon.

Thanks Mystery Fan. I am feeling a little better now, but I can crash down very quickly and very randomly. I'll ask my Mum later on what she thinks about the diet, because she cooks my dinners. Most likely will be that she'll say no, but its worth a try.
As for vitamins, I think I have some specific supplements in the medicine cupboard...
But I won't stop my meds. Even though they're not working fully, at least I'm not being chased down Tooting High Street by the police and then being taken to A&E (accident and emergency), like my last crisis.

wheat, also avoid casien, which is in dairy and processed meats.

10mg of Olanzapine isnt that high - maybe you need a higher dose, if you have become tolerant and you are not having any bad side effects. I was put on 20mg last year and I wasnt even psychotic. I didnt like the effect it had on me gaining weight, but given your symptoms I think I would exchange them gladly for a little weight gain.

Having you been eating sugar? Sugar is a major no no for people with psychiatric problems. It can cause an outset of symptoms.

Food additives /preservatives will also cause symptoms. Go organic

once your a bit more stable, you should get yourself a clinical psychologist who specializes in psychotic disorders. Look for one that provides cognitive behavioral therapy. This has been shown to be in the long run more effective than medication.

It has helped in the past, and I am 18 with a fairly low body mass. They do doses on mg/kg, I think.
But I don't think its that high either. Problem is, is that my doctor is confusing schizophrenia with mild anxiety. He says I'm on this medication to "calm me down". I've had three consultants and an a&e doctor say flat out that I have schizophrenia, and I need medication to control it. This doctor isn't a consultant, and probably hasn't been a psychiatrist for long, because he is very incompetent. He will happily see me end up back in a&e or being filed as a missing person who needs to be found urgently before he would even lift a finger. I can't get a dose raise because nobody will listen to me.
I feel so paranoid. I want to succeed, but I'm hallucinating. I'm feeling so scared of things that people tell me don't exist. There are people in my head who are watching what I'm doing. I'm losing my last bit of reality.

Nightbender, I have cut down a lot on my boiled sweet/jellybabies intake, but it hasn't helped. I'm on a special diet already which eliminates food additives. I think therapy will help me a bit, but I need to get reality back. I'm scared. Thanks for the help though.