Let go of the past

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I had very difficult teenage years ,begining by the fact that at 12 I had a severe case of Anorexia and I almost die from it..

It toke me some more years to fully recover, but even then, I didn´t had the apptitudes to relate with people my age ...I got really depressed and left school for a while ´cause I didn´t wanna get out of my home.

I really want to move on and left the past in the past but somehow I just can´t do it . I fell angry at my parents ´cause I tend to blame them for my anorexia even though it may not have been their fault (I´m not sure what to think about that), and I still get depressed when I look at my past wondering what was I thinking when I became an anorexic.

What can I do to move on and forget my past?? ..´cause I´m loosing the present by looking back.

Try exercise, maybe weights? Change your body image. Be proud of who you are now, then maybe it'll be easier to forget the past.

I hope vthings improve with you soon!

Unable to give practical ("do this specific action") advice.
Conceptually, my suggestion is to find something current/present that you can (and wish to) focus on. Reason being that (IMHO & in my experience) one can't magically make old/painful stuff shrink/go away. All one can do is look for something else that one can try to make bigger/more noticeable, as possible eventual substitute (for subject of mental content).

Be that as it may, I certainly don't claim to have gotten over or moved on from much-whenever I'm reminded of those times/instances, I get freshly upset all over again. What's happened is just that new stuff (good & bad) occurred in my life, which pushes the previous stuff out of my mind, most of the time.

I have longstanding resentment against my parents for giving me so much sh*t about my eating habits. I hate most foods, but they didn't take me seriously & kept trying to force me to eat horrible (normal-but not to my tastes) things. I was blamed & called stubborn, spoiled, etc.-as if being hypersensitive were personality trait I chose for self. Only in recent years, after getting this (ASD) dx, have I learned non-blameful names for my problems with sensory stimuli, which account for my highly unusual reactions to conventional food. Too bad this understanding wasn't available when I was growing up-my parents didn't know any better.

Quoted from the "Don't tell me this when I'm upset" thread:


2. "Get over it."


EDIT: I erased "STFU" and added this instead:
Sometimes to forgive people, though, you have to bring up all the issues with them. Letting it go just like that only makes it come up later. Delayed reaction, delayed trauma, whatever. If you live long enough, it will come up again, because it's there in your head all the time, even if it's not being visited. It could manifest itself as a depression, a paranoia, hallucinations, bad dreams, delusions, anything. Sometimes we can only move on after we've vomited. If we keep it in, just "forget about having swallowed the poison", it goes further in, into the blood, and further in, and it gets right to the organs, the brain and everything, and kills you. Sometimes you have to vomit before you can feel better.


If that sounds depressing, it could be clinical depression or ADD; maybe stimyulants or antidepressants might help.

One thing you must accept is that you didn't not choose to become anorexic. It was NOT a conciouss choice, but an illness that developed. You didn't want anorexia, like a person with epilepsy doesn't want seizures.
Accept that it was a chapter of your life, a part in which you can choose to re-read, or leave to be forgotten...and things may improve. If they don't, then I suggest that you talk to a doctor about this and get councelling to deal with the depression.

I don't know much about anorexia (I'm from the morbidly obese family) but I do get drawn back into the negativity of the past.

I'm better when I'm real busy and not alone. Summer is better. Hormonal flux can aggrivate it. I don't have a lot of friends so breif interactions with people I meet here and there help to give me something else to think about.

noticed latley that I never find myself reflecting on nice things. i almost wonder if it's genetic. my whole fam does it, with the exception of one uncle. he's successful. maybe that's related. stinking happy, successful people