My father caused me to have panic attacks.

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When i a kid and teenager my father yelled at me so bad i had panic attacks everytime i tried to do homework. The more i didnt do work the more he yelled the more anxiety i got. i resent my father for messing up my chance for success in school. He was a major reason for my nervous breakdown in college. If i ever bring what he did up he goes ballistic.


Im in treatment now and am being setup with dvr, but still i resent so much of my life down the tubes and being forced to live with him.

Aww. There there. Its okay.

I can relate only I didn't get panic attacks just tighten up. My dad was an alcoholic and did a lot of yelling. Everytime I needed help with any homework, I never knew what to expect. He'd either try and help or get mad at me because I didn't understand the assignement. I think when I was getting better after my dad was in recovery, I then and still do have a fear of either failure or acheivement. I didn't exclusively blame my dad for this but it didn't help. I had to go to rehab eventually for my alcoholism and learned more myself. My dad's totally different now and has apologized for his past. I don't know about your dad, but if you have PTSD, don't be afraid to get some additional help. I'm not a big fan of doctors but feel better when I get into support groups. Alanon is good for that. Although it's for ppl brought up in alcoholic homes, it's not exclusive to ppl who were brought up in a disfunctonal family. I don't know what else to say but try not to let your past define who you are now. Easy said then done but it's true.

I don't know if you're on medication but they have that for PTSD. I've heard it can be a hard thing to treat depending on how bad it is. I had a friend who had it real bad.

yes i had ptsd. i am on medication but not for ptsd. i am also in therapy.

OK. Good luck.

That's a messed-up person you had to live with. I sort of know how you feel. Maybe I brought on the anxiety or just not caring myself, but being yelled at or nagged about school just made me more nervous and more dysfunctional.

I grew up simular. Didn't know I had panic attacks untill I took antidepressants. One day I realized they were gone. Stayed gone for years.

I can just remember something I got yelled at about, like an unbrella, and it will start up again. They've been coming back slowly. I have to be real careful about where I let my mind wonder if I expect to be able to get any sleep.

As for the man who made me so nervous as a kid. I think his childhood was pretty rotten. Maybe he didnt' know better. Maybe he was stressed and took it out on me. Don't know. I've tried to leave it behind me. Yea, I guess it bites me in the dark sometimes...I don't need time alone to think.... He's a kindly old man now. No one could ever guess I believed him to be Satan himself! He's not the same person now. I don't resent him.

He has also hit me a couple times.

I can not really help you... I just wanted to post that I feel your pain. It is rather similar to what I experienced and panic attacks even when thinking about going home as well as 3 months of stationary psychotherapy were one of the consequences...

Steer clear of him if you don't feel like being nice, sneak antidepressants into his food if he doesn't want them and doesn't tell why he doesn't need them, and then maybe he won't be so depressed after a month or two and be able to talk about what makes him that way. If you can't steer clear of him and he depresses you, maybe you need antidepressants too!


Please don't yell at me for suggesting antidepressants yet again to yet another person!


Or about how he needs to talk about his childhood and maybe CAN'T let it go until he talks about it.

Woah, bad idea! Don't sneak antidepressents into anyone's food! But I agree with Ana's advice to stay clear of him.