I am Fat and Worthless

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I am almost 33. Here I am on incapacity because I cannot cope with daily life...how much more of a loser could I be?

I have achieved nothing as far as I am concerned. I just take up space with my oversized body.

I am fat and repulsive and old. That is what I see. My arse even has wrinkles when I lean back, that is how old I am.

I am 125 ibs now but I am still fat, I look down at myself sideways and there is fat there.

I will probably die this time round and I do not care.
I am tired of fighting on for nothing. I never get anywhere and I am alone in the world, I am incapable of feeling loved and maybe even incapable of loving others.

I wish I had cancer.

Girl,
your weight is NOTHING,
My ex-wife when we married was around 120 pounds, when we divorced it was up to 350 pounds,
last time I seen her it was well over 450 pounds.

the thing I hated most about her weight is her complaining about it yet doing NOTHING about it,
if it makes you unhappy do something about it, otherwise accept and enjoy who you are.

Come live with me for a while, I will work that fat off your bones.
and the first time you whine about it I would push you even harder.
Like your self and it will go farther with other people,
accept your self and you will be more happy,
make the changes in your self that you would like to see then you will be empowering your self to control your own life.
Otherwise, shut up about it, because no one else is going to do it for you, thats something your going to have to do on your own.

Having witnessed people die of cancer, no, you certainly do not want that, no matter how depressed you are.

You logically know that 33 is not "old" and 125lbs is not "fat." You need to take action against your problems and see a therapist; other people can help you get over your problem but you need to take some initiative. You can do it.

Graelwyn, You are my friend. Now do me a favor. Disregard your name on this OP - pretend it's written by someone named Sally. Read Sally's words. She is NOT a loser - she has accomplished A LOT, writes beautifully, sweet personality, and more, more, more. Since when is 33 old? It's not. Even if Sally were 99 - so what? Does that make her lesser? Graelwyn, you have a lot of compassionate; would you judge Sally based upon this? 125 lbs? NOT congruent with being fat! (Unless Sally is a dwarf or a grade-schooler). Would you judge Sally like this? Would you wish Sally, who is suffering, to die? I know, for a fact, Graelwyn wouldn't wish this on Sally, or anyone! Sally doesn't 'deserve' to have cancer or suffer and she's not alone because, for evidence, I'm reading this, and so are your other friends. I know, for a fact, you do love. You've shown an immense capacity for love and compassion. Give some to yourself. And that's an order.

Please feel better soon - I do not know why you feel badly, but take care of yourself. I know when I've felt badly you were kind to me. If you can't NOT be so cruelly hard on yourself, read your post again, but pretend written by Sally. Graelwyn would embrace Sally, not mistreat her. The Lab Pet does listen to your words. Now you listen to your words.

Can you see your doctor (or equivalent)? You seem greviously hurt right now and I am worried. Show him/her what you wrote.

I am not anorexic, I would weigh a lot less if I was and a size uk 8 would be loose, not fitted.

36 inches hips is fat.

Body is all I am anyway, no-one sees the inside, what does the inside matter? I have nothing left inside.

We are no-one unless we are known and loved.

If we are not loved or noted we do not exist.

So why exist physically?

I got it, girl post a picture of your self here and let us judge for our selves,
if you do not want us to see your face just make one from the neck down,
but I am willing to bet your actualy vary pritty just you do not think so.

I wish that I was 125 pounds! I am probably the fattest person in the world weighing more than 99999999999999 pounds. Man, am I fat!! ! I used to be skinny a few years ago. But because of all the medicine I'm on, it has made me gain 80 pounds in the last 2 years alone!

I weigh 185 lbs...

(I'm a guy, though. Frankly, I would like to be heavier.)

Ok girls, let me tell you what FAT is,
I like someone who likes them selves for whom they are,
so the actual weight does not matter to me "unless",-
(1) it gets in the way of my loving and kissing on the girl while making love.,
(2) the weight of your body pins me down to where I can not move if I wanted to,
(3) if there was some kind of disaster you weighed so much i couldn't carry you to safety.

as for looks, your face could be alost like a total scar and it wouldnt matter to me, as long as I like what I see inside you and who you are.

Ohhh c'mon now Graelwyn. 33 is still young, you have quite alot of life ahead of ya and as far as your weight, I must say that I am usually pretty honest like if a friend asks me a question, I know thats a touchy subject but I have been asked about weight before and I can tell ya I think many for some reason have a false image in their head about being eather ugly or fat. I can tell ya I certainly dont consider 125 fat at all, hell I weigh about 160 and I am too skinny!! ! Thats not in my head, thats the reality of things. Trust me you are your worst critic, thats that way for MANY people, if not all to a degree.

Life can be hard and it can get us down, you, like everybody else have things in life that are difficult and need to be dealt with. You dont wanna beat yourself up about this kind of thing, if you have a problem in life you gotta stop thinking so negativly about yourself and think and fix the problem, as hard as it can be. Beleive me!! I have issues in life too, we all do and I know these things can really get us down. Especally us aspies, life is even harder for us but you can get thru this and when you do you will feel much better about yourself! You can be happy, we all can it just takes lots of planning and being active, making good choices and trying to do the right thing.

I know how you feel, I am 25 and feel like or even FEAR that I will die alone and tho I can be happy with other things, my number 1 mission in life is to find true love and have kids, and I will give up everything that makes me happy to get this, unfortunatly I always worry I will get older and no matter how hard I try I wont suceed and be sad or feel like a failure later on in life, knowing I can never go back.

Look life is too short as it is, we both need to act NOW to find what will make us happy LATER in life. I felt the way you did for quite some time and its really rough, but you have to pull yourself outa that in order to work towards what you wanna do with your one life here on Earth.

I hope you feel better soon and you find your path thru life.