A problem that could derail my dreams

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I am currently enrolled with Vocational Rehab. I am required by regulation of that agency to go in at least once a year and meet with them to give them knowledge of how I am doing. I went to just such a meeting last week, and they were asking me how much reasonable progress I was making in my chosen career track they had helped me select. The counselor and supervisor, who was also present, asked the question in such a way that I felt safe telling them that I had chosen a different career track. I chose to become a librarian rather than stay the present course of being an editor.

Having told them that, they told me to consult with my schools transfer advisor, a man with who I work on a regular basis on setting my schedule up for each semester. They decided to schedule a meeting with him, me, the VR counselor, and the VR supervisor present.

I am currently attending a community college, and I have two semesters left. Once I am graduated from the CC, other plans, which I will soon get to, will ensue. I had chosen to go to Boise State.

My dad had brought up the idea to move while we were dining at a chinese restaurant last autumn. He decided that we would move to Idaho when he retires at the age of 68, my sisters braces are removed, and all of our debts (legal and dental) are paid off, and I am graduated. There are ulterior motives that are causing me to want to move there even worse.

I currently live in NW Montana, and I am getting tired of not having a life and not being able to realize my nerdy dreams. When my dad told me that we were moving to Idaho, I realized that I would be able to attend an anime convention (a dream which I have had for the great majority of my life) and join various anime and nerd-oriented clubs and activities, and also to go to anime stores and buy lots of anime paraphernalia. I basically want to be free to live my dream life as your garden-variety otaku.

My life as it is now is a boring panopoly of having to clean up after my family, sitting in front of the computer, being forced to listen to my sisters rap music, living next to a bunch of Native American drug dealers, taking long walks down the same road repetitively while talking to myself, and basically feeling devalued by my family. If you are wondering, the area where I live has not a lot of things to do, unless you are an outdoors person, which I am not. Most of the people in my local community are conservative rednecks and gangstas, or if not that, they are elderly pensioners, tourists who come to see our local national park, and snobbish rich Californians who buy second homes. There are not any gaming/anime/general nerd shops in the area, instead mostly souvenir shops that cater to tourists, the coffee shops of the locals, and the home design for the rich, logging business, and construction companies,

I also have the opportunity to take mass transit down in the Boise area, as I have a bad fear of driving and am generally an inept driver.

Right now, the meeting is scheduled for August 8, which means I have a few weeks to think something out. What I am afraid of is that they will use the meeting as an opportunity to try to persuade me, or rather to convince my dad use his coercive powers to encourage me to join a program which will help me to get a degree in Montana for a librarian job, and expect me to spend 5-10 years here as a librarian.

I really want to move to Idaho as soon as possible, which as originally planned was going to happen next summer. I am worried that I am going to need to have a pitched fight with my persuaded dad to maintain our prior plans to move to Idaho. I am really worried that this nightmare scenario is going to happen, and I will be stuck in Montana for 10-12 more years. I have already had 8-10 years of hell in this state. If my dad decides to go along with their plans, or coerces me to, I will honestly consider suicide.

However I have seen some alternate scenarios. Since the meeting will take place in this counselor's office, which is rather small and cramped, with four people in attendance, I am hoping that it will be too cramped to let my dad in and he will therefore not let my VR handlers and college counselor convince him. Also, if the nightmare scenario happens, I am hopeful I can have a pitched fight with him to stick to the plan to move to Idaho.

I need your advice on what I should do. You are free to leave what ever cooment.

Oooo... I was one of those tourists in Columbia Falls. Nasty. Seriously, it reminded me of ghetto's in Vegas.

I really didn't get it at the time (16)

You should see if maybe your grades will get you some sort of scholarship. Then you can go to Boise and go to school on your own. Yea, you'd be breaking away from family, which is always hard, but you seem to be doing quite well in school, so use that as your constant to keep you grounded.

Are you talking about Columbia Falls, Montana?