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People intimidate me because they're all smarter, more "together", more motivated, more competent, insightful, normal, productive, emotionally stable, all that crap I don't want to think about. With better memory, concentration, skills, whatever. I need to be alone because I don't want to feel like s**t compared to them, having them basically telling me not to be so whatever or to snap out of it or at least try to snap out of it. I don't want or need that.

My wife and son would be far better off without me.

I feel intimidated by everyone. No matter who it is.

I'm beginning to hate my passion. It's only there to torment me and remind me how much of a failure I am.

I'm stupid and useless because I always imagine a higher state of knowledge or skill than what I've reached.

I subject myself to depressive bouts and self-destructive behavior to feel emotions directed towards myself instead of in feeling sorry for others, since the latter only lets me glimpse how they could possibly be feeling without knowing the pain myself.

I just realized that I've effectively blocked one of the most special and important people I've ever met completely out of my life, and have very little hope of undoing it, for no good reason other than the fact that I'm absolutely frightened of change.
Phew, considering that was just a typed-out sentence, that was very catharctic. I needed that. Much kudos to Ana54 for starting this topic. Sometimes just saying these things really helps

I am weak.

I'll be alone for as long as I stay in this town, which I will be for at least a few more years.

I do stuff wrong more often than right. I panic easily. I've been one-upped by almost everyone I've ever met. I seem to always learn the life lessons I need after it's too late to do any good.

I must be human or something.

I agree, this is a great thread, Ana54. Sometimes it's good to just vent.

People don't want me around.
After a conversation with someone I don't know, I can
never tell "how we are." Do I talk to them again if I
run into them? Is it ok if we hang out later? Do they
think I'm inferior?
I can feel people's eyes burning into me.

Do you see your encounters with people as holes in a punch card, and your re encounters as optional holes being made but you don't know why or if you should even punch the next ones in?

I shouldn't bother talking at all. All I do is make odd relationships in which I pour my guts out to people who I've only just met. If not that, I cause a whole load of trouble for myself and others.
I'm a lot lower-functioning than others think.
I'm a lowlife who doesn't actually meet up with people when she tells her parents she does. Instead I go off by myself and hide for a few hours or days at a time.
I'm not who I say I am, because the real me is nothing. I have no hobbies or skills, due to utter life ineptitude.

I am me.

I'm not sure I fully understand your anology. If you mean an encounter
where I'm not sure if I should even say hello, well...yes. Many of my
encounters are more like "hanging chads." What was my original intent?
Sometimes I just say something because I think I should say something.
I'm not really sure if I wanted to say it either. I'm just trying to swim
through the muck of social interaction.

I do this, too. I've learned more self-control over the years
as a reaction to the way things turn out.

I've been completely unwanted for most of my life. Most people I've interacted with considered me someone they could use temporarily, then discard as I lost my utility. I've never been anything remotely valuable to others in the long-term, nor do I think I ever will be. People come to me for help, and that's it. I'm not competent in much, though people with a conscience try to say otherwise, and all I can do is listen to people's troubles and talk them through. All I ever get in return is silence, not even a "good-bye" or "thank you" for caring.

I don't pay attention and just skim some mail I get and as a result don't really know if my mother is manipulating me to gain control of me again and encouraging me to break up with Adverb, like Adverb is saying.