my ship is sinking

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i feel like a fool for making this post but i really have nowhere else to go and you all have been such a huge help for me already i don't want to ask anything more. i curse myself right now.

i just had a two hour cry and it didn't relieve anything. i'm just so messed up right now i can't even describe it. i feel like crap, i can't go anywhere, i can't do anything i ask to do. the people are nice but i can't talk to them because they don't listen, i can't relate blah blah

i feel like living is pointless, i'm wasting money that i don't have, my mom doesn't really care. my sense of reality has long since slipped my grasp. nothing is real anymore. when i close my eyes all i feel is pain. when i open my eyes all i see are things that don't have any meaning or value or purpose. i feel like i've been given the short straw from the beginning, and no matter how hard i fight it, turn it into something positive, it just gets worse.

i'm just confused, all the time, about everything. i have one person in my life worth living for and i feel like i'm not worth her time. she's got a great life, lots of friends, health, a job...and then me. i'm dragging her down with me and she doesn't deserve that. i don't know what to do.

i think i'm just going to try and sleep off this moment and hope tomorrow brings something better. 'night. sorry for the complaint. it just eases my mind a bit to get it out in the open.

(hugs Alaspi)

I hope you feel better in the morning.

I wish you didn't have to go through this Alaspi.

You do not deserve to be going through this. All I can say really is that the person you mentioned doesn't think you are a waste of her time at all. I can tell that she loves you. You mean so much to her. She was so worried when all of that happened to you. You couldn't possibly bring her down.

I hope sleep helps you feel better, and I hope you recover.

I hope your sanity, Rachel, comes home to you soon.

I hope you have a good, healing sleep. What I feel for other people, I feel for you.

Merle

Things can get better again Alaspi,


Take good care of yourself, you are a lovely person.

Yikes, that is not good. Yeah, try to get some rest. You are a great person. You made me feel very welcome here and I don't want that to go unnoticed. I can't imagine what you are going through and I wont even pretend to try and understand, but I will offer you my best wishes and hope that things pull through for you.

*repairs the leak in your ship*

Heck, yeah. Sometimes it feels like everything is closing in on you at once. Sleep is good, like punching your reset button. If you're not sleeping well, I've had good results with taking melatonin before bedtime.

Don't worry about posting too many problems. That's what this site is all about. Besides, you help other people here, too. And sim has that good waterproof caulk to seal ship repairs. No leaks.

Don't worry, we are all here

(hugs)

We carry each others burdens. Our own burdens are usually heavy, but when we help someone with their burden it is often light (compared to our own). Why is that?

I think it kinda interesting that the OP hasn't posted back here once to gain the support giving so freely here.

Merle