I need some help or advice please

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I started going to college 2 years ago and was roommates with someone I knew from high school. He was my only friend there for the entire first year despite me trying to fit in to various groups and clubs, I was very lonely that year but dealt with it because I at least had someone to talk to and make me laugh. That summer I had a great summer, and it really uplifted my mood. When I went back for my second year I had the same roommate and again he was my only friend and by that time I started getting comfortable around him and started acting more like myself, which didn't go so well, well ended up spending most of the year in silence. Luckily someone else I knew from high school came to the college that year and I started playing ping pong with him routinely and that helped me to feel like I had someone to talk to but I also still tried to meet new people and branch out to different groups and clubs, unsuccessfully, it was terrible I just made some awkward acquaintances that I didn't know whether to say hi to as I passed them of not... And then my cat Nigel died while I was away at college and I got really depressed to the point where I contemplated suicide on a daily basis..

I figured I needed help so I went to the counseling service and that was when I learned I had Aspergers, it was all quite overwhelming all this happening all at once and I got more depressed because I felt even more alone and isolated than before.. My roommate started to hate me even more because I started acting weirder then usual and being sad all the time..When it came to picking roommates for next year he told me he was going to be someone else's roommate the day before the applications were due. That was one of the lowest times for me, not having anyone to room with next year because the guy I played ping pong with wasn't coming back next year. I didn't have anything to live for, nobody to come home to, Nigel was dead, so I went to the counselor and told her I'd like to try antidepressants, but it turned out they worked a lot differently then I thought they would, you had to take them for months just to possibly see results and then you couldn't just stop taking them because you would go through terrible withdrawals, so I threw the pills away.

I did find a roommate, one of those awkward acquaintances that also needed a roommate, but I barely know him.. I got through that last semester because I still had my ping pong friend but barely got through it. I stayed pretty depressed through the beginning of summer and this summer wasn't nearly as good as last summer. Now I go back Monday(Labor day) and I'm terrified that I won't be able to survive this year...Not only do I have an extremely difficult schedule, but I am terrified at the prospect of rooming with someone I don't know and I'll be living in an apartment type place on campus with 8 people all people he knows but I don't know any of them. Most of me is terrified but part of me wants to take this opportunity to try to fit in with them and hopefully make some friends,but I don't know how they will react to me, my past roommate had known me for 7 years so he knew that I did some strange things and even though he never knew I had AS, he accepted that I wasn't social and liked quiet places.

Now I don't know what to do, what if they are loud and party all the time? Should I tell my roommate I have AS, how would I go about doing that? I've never told anyone apart from my mother and my sister. I don't want him to think I'm too weird I need at least someone to talk to this semester and I'm almost all out of clubs to try(I'm going to try bird watching club this time).

Does anybody have any advice have you ever been in a similar position or anything? Any help would be appreciated, I'm afraid I will get there and have a panic attack meeting all the new people,trying to live with them, fit in, and the hard class load too worries me...

maybe be rather quite, dont draw attention to yourself very much. they will think you are shy, but thats better than weird. but when they ask you to join them in something, dont refuse. you do it once and they dont ask you again knowing that you already have the invitation and waiting for you to ask whether you can join in the next time, what is more difficult.

When I was in the military, I did not fit in at all. I was made fun of and ostracized. I had no clue at the time (1989 - 1992) about AS or such.

I had roommates. People I knew nothing about. All walks of life and very different than me. It was very hard and I worried a lot about having quiet time and alone time. I had things stolen from me. I had one try using passive-aggressive stuff on me. Another tried to have him and his friends gang up on me and verbally abuse me.

It sucked.

However, it motivated me in other ways. I knew it was not going to last. I had goals for myself. I focused on them. I obsessed on them. That actually helped me, for every time I made a goal or got closer to one, I took that as a victory and something good out of a crummy situation.

I didn't stay around my dorm very much at times due to certain roommates. I explored the base I was on. I walked all over (good exercise). That led me to meeting people that I normally would not have meet. I got involved in a club. I took some night classes. I volunteered for things at my job. I got my job changed.

I was pro-active to my negative situation.

I did end up making some friends and find a few people I could click with. I was still made fun of and treated like ... well I won't use the language here, but it was not polite.

Looking back, I gained some really nice abilities from all this.

I don't know if anything I said is helpful, but I wanted you to know that I can very much relate.

Tohlagos' suggestion is what I always say I should've done while in college. It's excellent advice, in my opinion.