Three Meltdowns within a Week; a Record for me

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Yes, it's me again.

It's about 8:30am where I am, and in spite of only getting 4 hours of sleep, I'm WIDE AWAKE NOW because of something that happened half an hour ago.

You see, I was broken out of a peaceful sleep by my brother (the same one who pissed me off about the forks in an earlier thread), who asked me if I had a TV adapter that I borrowed last night; I said yes and rolled back over to sleep, but he knocked again and added "well, can I have it back?" It made me a little irritated, but I dragged my butt out of bed and disconnected the thing, and handed it to him. And when he took it, he didn't even say 'thank you'.

I stewed about this for a few minutes before Mom (from downstairs, where my brother also went) asked me what was wrong. I explained, and I said to my brother that at least a thank you would be nice...and even though he didn't mean it to be malicious, he said "Okay, I'm sorry, whatever..."

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If there's one thing I hate more in this world then 'grow up', it's 'whatever' spoken in an indifferent tone of voice! When he did that, its like the gratitude of thanking me was canceled out! I got so mad I rapped my knuckles on a nearby wall...and just like the last time he pissed me off, I heard him say again "oooo boy, I got Jeff upset' in that sarcastic tone of voice!! F**K!! ! DAMN HIM!! ! And the think is, my Mom should've made him apologize, but she dug into ME for 'overreacting'!

This was supposed to be a nice day for me, and it was spoiled in the first 6 MINUTES of my getting up!! I don't even know if I'm going to be calm enough to attend Chorus practice tonight, because incidents like this don't go away immediately...they *linger* like a bad odor in my head.

So, who do you think is wrong this time; him for, even though he meant nothing by his 'w'-word initially, turned it into a sarcastic retort, or me for allowing him to get under my skin?

Comments welcome (like I can stop them)

I've had several freak-outs within one day. And I can totally relate to your story. Sometimes I will have instant rage at some (revealed in retrospect) stupid little thing. Like participating in the PPR flame-wars on WrongPlanet. I'd almost put my fist through the computer screen. I'd gnash my teeth. I'd punch things. And to think I was quite addicted to the flame-wars and the rage-attacks they caused. But I've since wised up.

Last edited by slowmutant on 02 Oct 2008, 8:34 am, edited 1 time in total.

your not in control of what happens to you..
you are in control of how you respond to them



it is a simplified response

i too used to get meltdowns and when i do....i stew over them for ages...like you do.

we AS are cursed with over reacting to situations......your mother is right.......but it is normal behaviour for you.

you need to learn to controk your reponse to a meltdown that lingering stewing feeling.......i try distaraction techniques.
a play station game, i go for a run and withou tryng i forget about it.

I once got mad at my boyfriend on the 4th of July when he walked in my room early. He woke me up because he thought my alarm didn't go off and I got mad at him. I pushed him and told him to get out. I went to the bathroom and then went back to bed locking my bedroom door. I was lucky I was able to fall back asleep again.


I didn't really have a meltdown, I just flipped out. I do not like to be woken up either unless it's an emergency or I have to get up.

Thank god he hasn't woken me up before 6:15 on his days off. I have changed my time to get up at 6:15 instead of 6 AM. I guess since my flip out, he hasn't woken me up ever since. He won't even go in the bedroom for the laundry when I am sleeping.



You and your brother were both in the wrong.

He should have waited till you got up or just say 'thank you' after you gave him the item and you acted like a little kid.

Oh, I DO possess a VERY effective cooldown method: play the first 10 minutes of Scarface: The video game for the PS2.

Because I love to imagine pumping round after round of Carbine bullets into all my f**king family members as I kill every single Columbian in their quest to kill Tony Montana...and if you've ever played that game and that intro, it's VERY intense, VERY bloody and VERY graphic!

After about 10 or 15 minutes of this mindless slaughtering of enemy sprites, and imagining the corpses of my family laying before me, I feel SO much better, and I haven't harmed anyone for real.

Is that sick or not?

Last edited by Usagi1992 on 02 Oct 2008, 9:11 am, edited 1 time in total.

That is VERY sick.

I'd hardly call how I reacted as being childish...I mean, your freak-out at being woken up wasn't?

Ever heard the expression 'Pot calling the kettle black'? Don't make *me* out to be the bad guy, hun.

ok we know your trigger is being called a child or immature......you know this is a trigger.....
you need to write a list of triggers and when they happen go and play your playstation game.....
i assume when you mean "sick" you mean cool?

but yeah kill everyone on your game...it is distracting.

spokane girl is just testing your ability to not over react at being called a little kid....she is trying to help you.

i hope she is trying to help you.

*nods* Thank you, sir.

and to donkey, I mean 'sick' as in psychotic. But yes, I do know sick also means 'above cool', as I learned from the Tony Hawk skateboarding games.

Anyways, if you think that's sick, I've got some updates to this situation.

After having a long nap, from 10am to 2pm, I woke up to the sound of conversation downstairs, talking about my brother. He had just come back from a dentist's appointment, and was a little annoyed at discovering he had like 6 cavities! (he drinks tons of regular soda, but barely ever brushes his teeth) So yes, I will be able to attend my first Chorus practice tonight with a clear, calm mind, knowing that good karma has pulled through for me.

And even if it hadn't, I think that, while taking my morning walk, he snuck into my room and stole one of my video games, presumably to snap in in half! True, if that did happen, I'm a little bummed about that, but on the other hand...at least *he* got angry at me in return, so that cancels my bad morning out.

Somehow, the word 'schadenfreude'...just doesn't quite say it.

Usagi1992

Well, if it was a test, then I failed miserably. I mean, I did react, but I think I did so calmer then I thought I would.

Anyways, one final update...my bro did give me an apology tonight, and listened to me explanation you guyses theories about 'triggers'. He heard of it in the form of another word: 'launch codes'.

In that, your day could be going perfectly well, then someone says or does something upsetting that makes you metaphorically input the codes to the launching of your own 'total annihilation device'. Interesting.

So yeah. I'm feeling much better now...I'm at peace.

you reacted well.

it good that your brother spoke with you.

it is important to get closure.

im glad for you

Excuse me, you asked who do you think was in the wrong and I said you and your brother. I answered your question. I do not lie.


If you don't like getting an honest answer, why ask?

NM

As a Colombian, I must say: remind me never to get you upset.

All right, I apologize. I'm often guilty of thinking myself as above others, thinking I have the right to be blunt, and not expect bluntness to be thrown back in my face.

Yes, you answered truthfully, and I'm sorry for taking it the wrong way.