I keep falling down the same hill

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I am writing this because I can no longer contain my feelings or thoughts. I am suffering from extreme paranoia, every little thing people do gives me this feeling that they hate me. I always feel hated, like a loser. I always feel like I am doing something wrong. I always think maybe cutting off social contact for awhile will make me feel better, but that just makes me feel worse after a while. I have mood swings too, I feel happy, and then soon after I feel like crap. I just know that when I am feeling good it isn't going to last.

I also like this girl...but I'm afraid she doesn't like me back, its become apparent to me. We used to love each other as well...but, well its a long story.

(I thought you were gonna talk about a real hill and I was gonna relate on an uneven stretch of pavement that keeps getting me, and once I skinned my knee so badly that i think it is gonna stay that way....)


Sorry to hear you are going through rough times..are you keeping up on your nutrition and taking your Omegas?
It is hard for me to bounce back from anything when i am not on my omegas.

Wow I could've written this and it would've all been true except that I've never had a special someone.

well, you're only 15...there will be plenty torture and heartache ahead..

Thanks. I am feeling better now, dunno if it will last. I've been thinking about my paranoia. I'm never really mean to anybody, and I try to be nice, so I have come to the conclusion that maybe its just all inside my head.

I haven't done anything wrong that I know of, so I think I should just stop being so paranoid. If someone has a problem with me, well hey I didn't do anything to them so I'm going to try to not worry about it.

I felt this way alot when I was in my late teens and early 20's...I don't know how old you are...

I'm nearly 17, turning 17 end of this month

Remember, never like a girl just because she's normal and you want someone normal to be with you so that you will look normal. Also, if you don't really love her there are girls in the Aspie community who are lonely and would be willing to get with another Aspie. (If you really love the girl you said you like, good luck, though!)